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2012 New Years Resolutions.

2012-02-01T05:08:00.003+08:00

Here's my usual New Years Resolution for the year 2012!

1. Lose weight.

Every year, same resolution but never achieved. But one should always keep the faith! =D

2. Stop being lazy.

Come to think of it, this should probably come first because it's the most fundamental and appears to influence everything else too.

This also includes putting some effort in dressing up when i go out... especially footwear. D8

3. Stop procrastination.

Must do my best! ROAR!

4. Learn to not give a fug at little things people do.
I find that sometimes people do things to make you feel crappy or left out - whether accidental or not - and maybe they didn't mean anything bad, but this is where the "look at the fug i give" comes in. 8D

5. Blog more.

Teehee!

I find Blogging actually helps me improve, but i guess i think too much and my thoughts are always all over the place that in the end it actually takes me a few hours just to complete one simple post.

That said, Blogging improves me by keeping things in track, ranting, and also language, so this is a go!

6. Spend more time with family and friends.

To be honest i have my family and i don't have that many friends... then again i don't have that much time either... so whatever time i have, i want to spend it all with them. =D

7. Always be positive.

Occasional rants are allowed (because i'm the type that after i rant it out, everything's forgotten!), but in the end, one should always keep things in perspective. 8D

8. Spare time to help those who needs it.

=D!

9. Express love for people i love.

As much as i felt that i've improved a sensible amount in the sense that i'm not as awkward in expressing my i love for those people anymore... but in the end, they are people who i love, so they need to know! (^^ )

10. Holiday!

Beach holiday. Must. This year.
I miss the beach so so so much. ♡

11. Write more.

Record everything, whether in my diary or my notebook, because every moment is precious!

12. Smile.

(^^ ).

13. U.

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2012!!

2012-01-01T07:43:00.000+08:00

It's the New Year again! =D

So how was your New Year celebration?

I spent my countdown to the New Year with my family and friends at home. (^^ )

And it was awesome. 8D

I love being home. ♡

Credit: Google Images.

Review of 2011's New Year Resolutions.

2011-12-29T23:08:00.001+08:00

As per usual, this is a review of this:

~~LOSE WEIGHT.~~
I have my right to remain silent.

~~Be a better Blogger.~~
8D.
Even worst than before TEEHEE.

Tweet more.
Not sure if i've tweeted more, i know around Sept-Oct i stopped for a while... but hmm... let's just say i have! (^^ )

Tweet with content.
Improved! Shall consider this a pass! =D

Show love and gratefulness to people who matters.
Don't think i'm 100% there yet, but definitely improving, so shall put this as a pass! 8D

Stop being so hormonal.
Still rather er, "hormonal" before that time of the month, but all-in-all, i honestly consider it YES, I HAVE!
Thus, sucessbaby.jpg. 8D

Prioritize.
I honestly have no recollection of what spurred me to put this as one of my resolution, but hmm... i think i had prioritize things which are important to me better. Therefore, yes, done! =D

~~Be a better fan.~~
Nope. =(
If anything worst than ever i feel so bad. (T^T )

~~Dress up.~~
No idea how to rate this, hahaha! It's like i have finally discovered my style (more like justified my preference teehee), and instead of wanting to fitting myself into what i perceive as "stylish", in the end i just want my style to scream ME yet still not as er, "leh feh" lols!
There are rooms for improvement though, so i shall not consider this as "done"!

~~Sleep early.~~
Who am i kidding when i thought i could do it? Well, i did successfully did it a few times while in London, but it's nothing to be scream about so er... NO. LOLS!

~~Be more decisive.~~
Nope, still needs to improve on this!

~~Stop procrastinating.~~
Mmm...

U.
I love U.

Now that i've done a review of my NYR, time for a recap of the year before we move on to the New Year! GO! (^^ )

A recap of 2010 and 2011.

2011-12-29T00:45:00.000+08:00

To be honest, time passes a bit too fast for my liking.
It's like, all of a sudden i'm 24 this year without realizing it!

GROWN-UP!! BLEH! D8

Sometimes it still feels as if 2010 just passed, and it was just the beginning of 2011!

I don't believe i have made a compilation of 2010, because last year i was back home (after spending 3 months in Oxford), and i guess i spent more time away from the computer than being on it. Come on, i'm back home! KL has so much more to offer than using the computer (unlike in UK *cough*)!

So anyways, yeah, here's a short recap (more for myself too though!) of 2010 and 2011! (^^ )

2010
I remember the new term of the year means moving to Seksyen 13 of the KDU branch. Ah, the memories.

After passing my exams and confirming that i will be continuing my studies in Oxford, cue some of my busiest months in KL before departure; what's with learning to make decisions, visa, shopping and packing, and spending as much time with my family before leaving!

Visited Seoul in August. ♡

Hokkaido trip with my Smellies. Awesome possum! 8D

In September, "left home" for the very first time alone. So thankful to AhMa, Naima and Naipa for sending me off. I really really appreciate it. =D

To be honest i felt the year spent at Oxford taught me a lot of things.
I thought i was independent enough to stay a year abroad. I WAS HORRIBLY WRONG.
Within a week i was making noise of wanting to go back in December. =D
Told myself though, it's just a year for me to get through, no matter what i must not cry when i Skype with my parents in case they worry! And i didn't yeah! =D

I learned to appreciate a lot of things and every little thing in life, and to not take things for granted, and to always be grateful! (^^ )

2011
Addiction to 9gag takes on a new level.
Crap.

June 2011 marked a huge step in my life. I turned 24 and finally, graduated! (^^ )

Summer was spent in KL being extremely fat and happy. 8D
Till all the stupid visa and housing issues come along bleh.

Returned to London in September, and spent a month of what i would still think of as the darkest moments of my life what turf. And i thought that first week in Oxford was bad lols!

Homesick this time was worst than usual. Classes was horrible. Not getting a good sleep every other night that i finally cried while Skyping with my parents despite my vow not too teehee.

At one point there, it scared me how not random i am anymore, that i lost my whimsical self... it honestly scared me... but i realized it's just me not getting in touch with it, and i really should make an effort.
Or maybe it's just studies or reality getting to me lols!

However, in the end i learn to preserver and put things into perspective... and survived the year! Yeah! =D

Went home in December, had never been happier and more grateful! (^^ )

Ok very badly written entry i know! =P

Anyhoo!
I honestly felt i'm a very jinx person. Everything i hope for, or said aloud, will take a turn for the worst, so instead of making any "wish" for the new year, let's have a look at my latest "motto" if i may say so, which is...

LOOK AT THE FUG I GIVE. 8D
Ok thanks bye! =D

I don't know what i want.

2011-12-19T08:00:00.001+08:00

Had this very interesting conversation with my friend the other day, which ponders me to think:
What do i honestly want?

Well it's not exactly conversation, but rather the reply from my friend had prodded me to think.

I guess i know what i honestly want, perhaps for conversation sake i was being specific or maybe i was just being unrealistic.

Either ways, it's just me being me i guess - extremely difficult.

Hee. 8D

So what happened to you?

2011-12-19T03:42:00.000+08:00

While on my flight back from London for the holidays, it came to a sudden realization that heck, i'm 24 this year. Everything is happening so fast that you did not even have the time to stop and reflect on what has happened.

So i decided i want to compile a book of things because my memory is that bad ZOMG... and i remembered i used to have this book which i write everything in...

Found the book, and flipping through the pages, i see another side of myself which i've forgotten.

The thoughts, essence of the writing, feelings, preference, principles etc... everything is still the same... however, why did i feel that i've changed?

Why have i stopped writing in that book as i had before, filled with colours, random thoughts and everything and anything i want to?

Was it reality? That is putting a halt to my "creative" (however much i may have), whimsical and random side?

Was it laziness?

Or was this a part of growing up?

Is it bad or good that however much i would like to move on, i would also like to keep that side of me?

So yeah... what happened to that girl?

So yeah...

2011-12-15T03:19:00.009+08:00

Totally have the hots for Jung IlWoo now.

I blame my itchy backside for reading (and watching) his latest drama (which he is oh-so-hot inside!)!

The voice the charisma the body gahhhhhhhhhh somebody hit me over the head (gently) please! D8

He wears his clothes really well too, and i love that in guys! 8D

Plus he looks effing hot in kiss scenes. 8D

Hubbaness.

Hmm...
.
.
.
Ok this Blog is starting to head towards a very weird direction, as opposed to its usual (fangirly and ranting) posts.

Which goes to shows sometimes we should just eat our words...

2011-12-13T09:08:00.004+08:00

I know i said i dislike Korean dramas for its cliche plots etc etc...

But fact remains some dramas still gets to me. *cough*

I enjoy reading dramas more than watching them because it takes up less time and not as draggy (because i can be impatient like that).

The current one i'm (reading, and watching *gasp* for once) is Flower Boy Ramyun Shop.

I've known of it before, but how thankful i am for only reading it now when it's Episode 12! Otherwise the wait... D8

... and hehe, i'm reading it (now) because i'm procrastinating from doing (any) work. Or i would've waited till it finishes. 8D

*coughwhatworkcough*

I've always read dramas on Dramabeans only instead of watching them, but for this one... the caps were properly captured at oh-so-yummy scenes of Jung IlWoo's expressions that cannot... MUST DOWNLOAD AND WATCH. 8D

I've always had the hots for Jung IlWoo after reading 49 Days. I mean, how hot can he be? And this drama just further confirms that fact!

SHO HOT HIM!

So basically yeah, i'm watching this drama for him. =P

And oh yes because the female lead (Lee Chung Ah) is rather likable and not annoying (yeah i'm that fussy too!).

And the scenes which makes your heart pounds... mmm mmm mmm.

Jung IlWoo. Humunah humunah. 8D

Yeah yeah, all for being a "feminist" and all that but i can be such a hopeless romantic(?) over some of those scenes *cough*.

And this being the first time i actually hear his voice, it's not how i imagined it would be (bad thing from reading dramas instead of watching them...), but it's starting to grow on me. I LOVE how deep his voice is. Further yummy points. ♡

Would love to post some of the screencaps which totally captures my heart but yeah i would so be judged for those pics (and it would take a lot of time) so let's leave it for another time when i *cough* have no work to do and was so fluttered i just had to share those pics, ok? =P

Meanwhile, since i really have to get back to work, here's one yummy one of Jung IlWoo.

Mmm. 8D

ps: Still Mrs Choi, just in case you're wondering.

pps: Oh btw am a bit annoyed with EunBi's character for sort-of "toying" with both boys' feelings. Or at least, KangHyuk's. It's very clear who she likes no?

Happy Birthday Princess!

2011-12-13T02:13:00.001+08:00

Today is my Fatty's birthday, or her full name, Her Royal Highness Princess Kim HeeChul.

This would the second year i am not around to "celebrate" her birthday, but it's ok! Mommie will be home real soon for a post-celebration! (^^ )

Mommie and 아빠 love you very very much Fatty. ♡

What am i doing here?

2011-12-11T03:40:00.003+08:00

So i left the room at about 4pm, rushed to Convent Garden to see the reindeers (last chance to see them), only to find that it's actually not till 5pm, but 4pm AKML. So when i got there they were all packed and ready to go. =(

I still get to see them, just couldn't pet them AKML further.

And bad news came in the form of a message that our dinner (DUCK!) has been postponed to 8.45pm because that's the earliest time they have AKML much further.

So i have two choice, either to go back and wait till 8pm, or just walk around till then.

I initially wanted to go back, but the tube station at Convent Garden was so packed so i walked to Holborn's tube station.

Then at the platform, i saw this advertisement that it's traffic-free at Oxford Street and Regent Street today (and tomorrow) so i thought... i had to pay £1.25 to go back anyways, might as well go Oxford Street and do some shopping?

So yeah, i chose to go shopping till dinner time. 8D

I anticipated the crowd, the thing i didn't anticipate is that i actually have nothing to buy, and i forgot that crowds can actually dissuade me from shopping! ROAR!

Well, my main intention to visit Oxford Street was to go Hamley's to get my niece's birthday present, but they have nothing i wanted so yeah, seriously no mood to shop after that.

So i entered the Apple shop, and was using their iMac since what... 6.30pm?

It'll be so funny if i forget to log-out later and then my FB gets hijacked or something hahaha.

Note self-reminded, LOG-OUT.

My legs are hurting so badly now because there's no seats (there is one but the dude next to me took them before i could (T^T )...) and i have another hour to go. What joy.

On the plus side, had one of the BEST burgers ever! So yummy om nom nom! 8D

You know you've been an ELF for too long when...

2011-12-06T04:10:00.003+08:00

... you start laughing at them and making fun of them whenever you see their videos or whatever. 8D

Or is it just me? D8

I'm weird and a bad ELF like that.

CORRUPT ALL THE ELF!!! 8D

That said, i know how purr-fect they are so that's all i need to know. ♡

Super Junior Kiss the Radio.

2011-12-05T02:41:00.002+08:00

It has been what, 5 years and 3 months?

I'm not that well-verse with Korea's radio programmes, but personally i felt that my boys are bloody awesome to be able to keep this programme for so long despite their busy schedules! How many other stars have done so? =D

And just a few months (weeks?) back i just remembered, ah, Sukira has been so long, it'll be with us forever wouldn't it?

However i guess the inevitable has come... 4th December 2011, the last broadcast of EunTeuk DJ.

I told myself i didn't want to listen to it (was Skyping with parents too at that time anyways), not like i would understand anything anyways... i was online the whole time, checking Twitter and all, but it's like i didn't want to acknowledge that fact that it really is their last broadcast.

Now i'm feeling all restless and jumpy and finding reasons to be upset with, that i don't know if i'm just being PMS-y or what but...

When it comes to the boys, on stuffs which i know will upset me... it's like i feel if i somehow don't acknowledge it, or just put on the "i couldn't be bothered" attitude, it'll just go away...

This happened with HanKyung, KangIn and HeeChul.

However, when i actually feel it, everything's actually worst. I should've just acknowledge it to begin with! Don't know why i never learn. Numbing the feelings won't make the pain go away, it'll only make it worst.

With hopes that this entry will serve as a reminder when Old Man leaves for military next year, and i'll have learned to accept it instead of pushing the emotions away until later... otherwise i have this feeling everything will turn up rather horrible, *especially* since i'll be alone here in London with nobody to talk to about it! ROAR!

Before i end this entry, to EunTeuk DJ, thanks for the amazing 5 years and 3 months. As Old Man always say, "End 가 아닌..And 잖아요.."? (^^ )

MAMA 2011 Album of the Year.

2011-11-30T01:41:00.003+08:00

My amazing boys. ♡

While watching that video, i have absolutely no idea what Old Man is saying... but i still cried like a baby. =P

I guess he's just really good at projecting his emotions into his acceptance speech, and as a (very old) ELF, we know how grateful and genuine he really is when he thank the fans.

That's how idols or even celebrities should be like.

Old Man, because of you, there was never a day i wasn't proud of being an ELF.

우리는 슈퍼주니 ~~어~~~ 에요!! ♡

Superman.

2011-11-23T22:45:00.002+08:00

Mr Choi as Superman makes me happy.

Credit: Happy Talk

Even though i wasn't there, but it still send tears to my eyes. (^^ )

Because Superman is my nickname here in UK. (yeah due to random superhero nicknames for everyone hehe!)

And i love the fangirl in me, because the simplest little things can send me to Heaven.

I love U so much. ♡

Woops.

2011-11-23T22:30:00.002+08:00

No. Update. Again.

ROAR!!

I'm so sorry Blog i love you so much! (T^T )

Ok so just a brief one today...

Darren Criss is HOT.

It's either him in The Warbler's uniform, the voice or... the voice. Yeap it's the voice.
Hubba-ness. ♡

I don't like him with curly hair, but this picture is too adorable to not post! XD

Dorks are ♡.

Ok thanks bye!

2011-11-17T06:24:00.002+08:00

I know i should stop emo-ing, feeling sad, being upset, complaining or even talk about it.

I am extremely grateful for the past 3-years, and what happened few weeks back was more than i could ever hoped for!

But sometimes... i just can't help it. I want to be there so badly it just hurts.

Though, to be positive, i'm happy that i'm still able to find the "positiveness" in it. (^^ )

I'll do my best to stay strong for the next few days. GO GO GO!

Happy 6th Anniversary.

2011-11-06T00:40:00.003+08:00

Dear boys.

For all the good things you have brought to my life; the experience, the emotional rollercoaster whether good, or bad (hey, i'm being extremely positive!), the smile, the tears, the traveling, the excitement and so many more... and ooh, most importantly, the Seoul Girls!

Even when i'm not a good fan as i used to be, or as active on keeping up with the latest news... everyday i am thankful i'm an ELF. (^^ )

I love you boys!! ♡

Not sure...

2011-10-26T19:38:00.002+08:00

Not sure if i'm too busy these days to even be my usual lame, whimisical, random self...

Or i'm just growing up.

Or perhaps just "acting my age" because i'm surrounded mostly by people so much younger than me. Ehem ehem.

...

Hmm, the latter two not likely i guess... Most likely that i'm just too busy that i forgot my whimsical side?

There's also the possibility because everyone just met each other it's not nice to show my true colours yet?

Heehee.

As much as i'm trying to appreciate being here and all, i miss home so much and everyone back there like mad. I also miss that crazy self i can be back home.

This Blog really needs to be revived soon.

2011-10-26T19:24:00.002+08:00

I find that i'm so busy nowadays (procrastination from work = busy, too) i don't even have time to digest my thoughts.

Gone are the days i am able to poop out a hipster-poetical entry within a few seconds.

...

Ok never able to (the hipster-poetical entry, but poop entry yes), but still! I like the stuffs i wrote even if nobody else understands what i'm saying or mean.

Sometimes there are so many things i just want to express, and i know when i had expressed them i would feel better... but when you try to fit them into 140 words on Twitter, then try to shorten them so they fit... it just kills the mood!

This Blog has been with me for 5 years and more, through thick and thin through almost everything (even if it was neglected after Twitter). It deserves its comeback... even if all i write nowadays are random emo stuffs. 8D

It's also a good practice on how to organize my thoughts?

Hoping as busy as things get, i will keep this vow at least till i had to make this vow again. =)

Dear Boys,

2011-10-22T17:26:00.004+08:00

Too busy to even check-up on you boys these days (well, not like i've been doing it even when i'm free... =P).

However, it's like the busier i get, i actually felt more distant.

That said, you boys are always on my mind.

Whether it's just the littlest thing i see...

I'm such a fangirl aren't i?

I miss you boys so much. I want to see you guys so badly but i'm afraid. So how now?

Go go GO!

2011-10-19T06:15:00.004+08:00

Being here scares me sometimes.

I think i know why... though i guess there's nothing i can do about it but face it with all the awesomeness i can muster... which is a lot.

Let's do this! Go go GO! 8D

2011-10-09T06:29:00.005+08:00

Truth be told, i love Oxford, and i really enjoyed my time there. I'm very grateful that i am able to spend a year there, and the time there had taught me a lot of things which i feel i would not be able to learn elsewhere.

Though as much as i would not trade the good times and memories i've had there, at the same time there are so many things and event i've missed back home because of being there.

Yeah, you really can't have everything you want. I guess it's just up to us to look at the bright side, and be positive wherever you are. (^^ )

Learning to cope with homesick, one step at a time...

2011-10-03T04:09:00.002+08:00

This is not my first time away from home, but surprisingly, this is the worst.

I guess because last year at Oxford, despite feelings of homesick and what not, there's still the great classmates that i have who are always around. We make each other laugh all the time, and it was just good fun!

The outings, the dinner, the trips together... i honestly miss them so much because they are part of all the good memories which i've had in Oxford.

Oxford is a great place. It amuses me when i think back and thought i hated Oxford, when after the whole winter-gloomy-period is over, it is definitely one of the place which i truly love. =)

2011-07-18T00:36:00.003+08:00

I love my country. Always have, even though to be honest Malaysia sucks in so many ways.

To be honest, I don't really fully understand nor have I been following the whole BERSIH thing. So in order to not look like those people who speaks out just for the sake of having an opinion, I shall not comment on that.

That said, I am all up for a better Malaysia, for us Malaysians.
And what actually sends warm fuzzy feeling into my heart, is watching Malaysians abroad unite for this matter.

All along I've always felt that Malaysians migrate abroad doesn't really care whatever's going on in Malaysia, so seeing those videos on Malaysians abroad actually coming together for something they believe in, wherever they are... In which they feel will make a better Malaysia even if they will not live there anymore... It just feels great.

It's just great to know that despite being abroad, Malaysians will always be Malaysians. We love our country - it sucks - but we're all trying to make it better for future Malaysians. Because that's where we are from, and it's not something you can change. (^^ )

This is me.

2011-06-20T05:40:00.001+08:00

I do not think i'm pretty.

But i don't think i look too bad.

I am definitely not thin.

I'm fat, and no, i'm not those girls who are 43kg yet calls themselves obese!

I can be pretty positive.

Yet when i'm negative the whole world seems to crumble along.

I am really really REALLY loud!

I emo easily.

But i cheer up pretty easily too! You just have to know how!

I can be very emotional.

Yet i can also be very realistic.

I ~~guess i~~ am quite hot-tempered.

But nothing which is "unsolvable". I get back to normal pretty quick. =D
(but apparently the pretty quick still isn't enough for people to think that i'm not all that scary! Woops!)

I'm not at all sensitive.

Which is really bad as i sometimes hurt other's feelings without realizing it.

Sometimes when i forget myself, i may appear rude.

But i do not really mean it. I just forget my *ehem* manners... because i'm not a "gentle" person to begin with.

I am very unreasonable.

Because i can. Muhaha!

I speak too fast.

Woops!

I am definitely not the nicest person! In fact, i may be a big (literally and figuratively) bully!

But yeah i admit it. That's how i justify myself when i'm being mean! 8D

I am super duper random and retarded.

Because i can. Again. Hahaha!

I am full of whimsical and childish thoughts.

Because the whole is too serious and rigid that it's boring to be so!

There's a different between acting childish, and being childish.

I always get misunderstood, because i'm just bad at conveying and expressing myself to the point.

I love my family and friends to bits.

If i fail to show you i'm sorry, but know that i love you guys very much, and am very grateful that you guys have stuck through with me despite my horrible personality!

I AM 24 THIS YEAR BITCHES!!

Never be ashamed of how old you are, because that's who you truly are!

That said, it's no harm celebrating your birthday with a huge "17" plonked on the cake. 8D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ME!

You're two decades old, far from perfection, yet what matters is how much you truly love yourself!

And that's all that matters! 8D

Graduated.

2011-06-15T06:57:00.004+08:00

Finally, i am a graduate!

The results weren't what i was hoping for, but i guess i deserved it for not putting much more effort into what could've been. =P

That said, i want to be grateful that i actually made it through despite the half-ass work i've put in.

There are so many people i want to thank, but at this moment here there's only one person i really want to thank.

The nights before my exam when i had to study and thought i wouldn't be able to make it, it was his tweets before and when i wake up which helped me get through the night.

Every three nights before my exams, without fail.

And for that i love U so much.

Surreal.

2011-06-15T06:06:00.002+08:00

I still find it surreal to see you guys all the way here in Europe.

I shall be a true deluded fangirl - perhaps to the horror of some - and say that it was as if the boys had came for me. =)

Thank you.

There were so many "obstacles" around the way, i even thought i should not come for you boys... but in the end, it was all worth it.

I love you boys so much. 8D

U.

2011-06-06T22:06:00.003+08:00

I procrastinated, and only started studying a few days before my final exam.

I was so worried i wouldn't be able to make it.

But night after night, your tweets are what made me hold on and presevere till the end.

It's purely coincidental, i guess... but for me it meant the world.

Every time when i'm unhappy, or when i needed someone... or when i was about to stray =P...

... you were always there in your own ways.

And you sang one of my favourite songs.

I love U so much. Thank you.

Surprise surprise.

2011-06-01T07:52:00.004+08:00

Never would i thought i would find a city i really like here in UK!
I would even go on to say that i really love the place!

And surprise surprise, because it's Liverpool!

I was shocked myself, especially being an MU (albeit useless) fan!

But i just love it there!

It's not too dirty, people there are generally friendly... but most important is i actually felt safe there! Like i did in Oxford! (Yes, Oxford's in the list too!)

And mind, i haven't had this feeling in any other places i've visited thus far.

I guess a huge part might be because of Liverpool One, because that place is just beautiful! And i miss shopping malls SO BADLY!

There's a lot of people, but it's not too badly congested when i was there on a working Tuesday!

It might also be because it's near the sea, and i love the sea!

That said, one thing i'm terrified of there is nuclear bombs from the sky when you least expect them! The seagulls there are HUGEEEEEEEEEEE!!

Anyhoo, the amount of eye candies there justify the nuclear-bomb-problem i guess? Teehee!

Can't wait to go there again! (^^ )

Number.

2011-05-15T08:19:00.004+08:00

People often ask, why do i love Super Junior so much.

Once upon a time, i probably be able to give you an answer... but now... i honestly don't know what to say.

The default answer now is "because i like their song", though truth be told this is answering for the sake of answering.

I can also say they dance well, they sing well... but i guess because there are so many reasons why i love them so much, i couldn't figure out what it is ultimately!

Though one thing i do know is, i love them because they are so close to each other despite the number of members.

All the boys are just so close to each other that it's endearing to see them so!

I've seen other boybands which, despite not having so many members, yet there is certain awkwardness between some members.

Unlike the boys!

So i guess this is just one of the many reasons why i love them so much. (^^ )

2011-05-11T10:44:00.003+08:00

I've never been the best fan.

I forget dates.

I never know what's happening at the moment.

I always get distracted by trivial matters.

I am never up to date with information.
I will never be an up to date fan.

I have amnesia.

But regardless, i love you boys so much. 8D

Nobody will ever know how much i love them.

2011-05-11T01:53:00.002+08:00

But yeah, i really really really do. ♡

ps: Yeah, the title of the post can be read in whichever way you like! Go figure! 8D

Rinaldo.

2011-05-07T10:51:00.002+08:00

I remember...

... when i first watched this performance, i actually wondered, what are the boys doing playing "invisible" instruments...

Then when KangIn appeared, as you may expect, sobfest 2010 what turf. Because i was totally not expecting it!

I remembered crying so badly that this girl nearby was shocked, and during the second SS3 i cried worst than KangIn's CaraCara, and she had to console me in the end... =P

And then in subsequent SS3, i've never failed crying at this part.

Sometimes, i have this "thing" of not being able to accept unhappy stuffs, that part of me prefer to think of it as a "dream" which will eventually past.

I acknowledge that it has happened, that it has really happened... but i just can't accept it.

It's not a good thing, because when i have to finally face the thing which i was in denial of, when i finally accept it, everything doubles up in emotions and it's probably worst! I probably should've just accepted it when it happened!

This was one of it.

Regardless, looking forward to the day when all my favourite boys are on stage, together, again, like in 2008.

I don't think it's possible, but one can always hope, yes? (^^ )

Of the boys singing Chinese songs...

2011-05-06T08:28:00.004+08:00

I'm always so proud of the boys whenever they sing a Chinese song. 8D

I don't know, perhaps because i'm Chinese, or because i know how difficult it can be to sing Chinese songs what's with the pronunciation etc...

Then pronunciation aside, you have the emotions to project blah blah...

To be honest, i personally feel that Chinese songs have notoriously complicated emotions. Like seriously, you feel like whacking the person over the head "OI CAN YOU BE SIMPLER??"...

But anyways, one thing i really like about Chinese songs is how it really sings to the heart. They are horrible to listen to when you're emo, but you can't deny how it can really reach you when you are at most vulnerable.

Anyways, yeah, the boys have been singing Chinese songs... and i always cry whenever i listen to them!

I feel part of me cries because i can finally understand them better what turf.

But yeah, mostly because i'm so proud of them! 8D

One of my favourite have to be 如果你也聽說 sung by KyuHyun!

I've listened to this version for like days repeating to no ends, and it stops me from doing anything else every time i listen to it!! Nasty bugger...

But no denying how awesome it really is!

I haven't listen to A-mei's original version for the longest time, being here... but i used to listen to it every time my friends and i have our K-session! It's like a must sing song!

The other day (after being drowned with JoKyu's version) i finally listened to the original version again, and i was further amazed by how awesome JoKyu can actually be!

A-mei is awesome (of course), don't get me wrong. When i listen to her version, i actually felt really sad, like... tragedy... how she was really heartbroken, and all that really sad stuff... you can actually "feel" the pain. She's just powerful like that!

JoKyu's on the other hand, actually gave me the feeling that it was a completely different "version", so to speak. The emotions he is able to convey is just... whoah!

Same meaning and everything, except that i feel JoKyu's is more towards "first love". Much softer, much gentler... unlike A-mei's really powerful emotional one.

As much as i love A-mei's one, i love JoKyu's one very very much as well. Never forgetting his pronunciation! Just awesome! 8D

Ming recently sang 可惜不是你, and yeah sobfest again!

Ming's pronunciation may not be as good as JoKyu's yet, but still!

The thing about Fish Leong's songs, i always feel like she is singing from a third-party point of view. Like she is looking at the couple (since most of her songs are love songs) and singing about their emotions at the moment. My friend doesn't like her because she feels that she only has one singing style. Nevertheless, i still like some of her songs because sometimes i feel, instead of feeling the "emo-mo-mo-ness" from the song, it's nice to hear someone singing about it from another perspective i guess?

Anyways, Ming's version, i feel that when he sang, he's actually a party to the whole situation. Like he's singing it to a person who he once loved, but they couldn't be together and all that. Like he is singing about a feeling he has experienced (unlike Fish's third-party point).

This time round, i personally prefer Ming's version! I feel he could do better by improving his pronunciation, but other than that, 8D!!

Did i mention he was the one playing the guitar as well? *swoons*

I don't know why i'm suddenly all emo-mo-mo-ey and deciphering feelings i get from songs what turf, i guess i'm just procrastinating from studying?

But anyhoo, tell me how to not be proud of the boys! Awesome as always! (^^ )

All My Heart.

2011-05-05T07:38:00.002+08:00

Just because i don't like leaving my Blog on an emo note, here's my awesome possum boys! 8D

Though admittedly they are the main cause of some of my emoness and tears at times, but it's justified because they never fail to make me smile and laugh whenever wherever.

That's why i love them so much! ♡

Enjoy!

Being unreasonable.

2011-05-05T05:28:00.005+08:00

Everyone is entitled to be unreasonable every now and then.

While some people may not do so often, some can, so sucks to be the former. =D

Especially now with all those exam pressure, yes, i can. 8D

I'm feeling extremely lonely and vulnerable now that exams are around... well, yeah i have not been doing much preparations hehehe... also because there's nobody else around for me to annoy when i need to de-stress.

So when all those stress are couped up, it just goes to your head and makes you emo and eat a lot (or don't eat at all) etc etc.

It's times like these when you can try to blame that because you are so stressed you can't do any preparations... yes? No?

It's also times like these when i honestly wish i was home.

Home comfort aside, everyone's back home you can't help but to wish you are back with them.

You are surrounded by people who truly cares for you (or well, only because you're extremely loud and annoying but hey, better than nothing? 8D), not stuck here alone with the four corners just to stone and stare at a random corner bleh.

Oh well, just a few weeks till you're back! So for now, let's do this GO GO GO! 8D

Yeah, i can be extremely positive when i want to *coughcough* it scares me sometimes. 8D

Of my love for books.

2011-05-03T09:27:00.004+08:00

You see...

When i read a book which i love, i will always end up reading it like i'm part of the story. Like the events in the book is real. Like i'm actually following the protagonist of the story on the quest/ adventure/ etc. That's why when i talk, or even rant, about a book which i really like, i can sound a little too over enthusiastic about it... like a little kid on crack, or geek, perhaps?

I blame it on the child in me. The over imaginative one. The one who loves stories of adventures, myths and legends. I figured this is why i've always stick to fantasy or adventure novels... or to put it simple, books from the children's section AKML.

They are not "scary" to bring to reality, it's fun to read, and it's always exciting to put yourself into the story! It's like you're going on an adventure!

While some might say stuffs like "it's time to stop reading children's book", i say screw them. Life's hard enough without you piling even more stress to it. If you have a child in you, spoil them! They deserve every bit of indulgence you can give them. =D

Everyone needs a place where they can escape reality, and mine's in my children-section-books.

I love my children-section-books. I love talking about them. I love reading about stories of adventures, quests, fantasies, legends and myths... and regardless, i honestly don't think i'll stop anytime soon, because they are too fun to read! (^^ )

Side note: I've realized for quite some time now that when i read a book, i will always pour myself into the story to the extent that everything else will be oblivious to me.

Perhaps that's also why i'm so picky with the books i read. I have not read a lot of books, unfortunately, because like i said, i'm just fussy like that.

If i read a book, i want the book to be worth my time, because when i start, it will be as if nothing else existed in the world. I will be so into the story, only to wake up later to realize stuffs like "oh crap i haven't study for exams". That's how completely ob... ... ... ok i lost the word but you know what i mean!

Heck, when i read a new Harry Potter book (for the first time), SiWon could dance topless in front of me and i wouldn't even realize!

...

Or would i? *smirks*

Just to rant.

2011-05-03T08:25:00.005+08:00

I love Greek mythology!

One of my favourite books is Percy Jackson. While most might consider it as a children's book - which it is, mind - i honestly love the book!

While i haven't reread it as "much" as Harry Potter ("much" emphasized because i have honestly lost count of the number of times i've read Harry!), - which forevermore will remain my favourite books ever - nonetheless i love this series for its Greek mythology!

So i started reading Percy Jackson *after* watching the movie (Logan Lerman woots!), and am absolutely grateful that last book has already been released by then, so there's no worries of having to wait every year for a new book. In fact, i actually stopped after the third book for quite some time before finishing the fourth and fifth (last) book in UK.

After finishing the fifth book, and also finishing "I Am Number Four" (big mistake, i hate having to wait for the next book!), i have nothing else to read so i thought why not read "The Lost Hero", the sequel to the Percy Jackson series.

...

BIG MISTAKE.

I've totally forgotten that the book is in a series (FIVE BOOKS!!), so after finishing this i would have to wait for the a new one EVERY YEAR! GAH!

And the last book would be in Autumn 2014... T^T

Anyhow, the mistake has been made, and now i'm hooked onto a book which has yet to end bleh...

It's not so much the wait... I have waited 8-years for Harry Potter... but this book, The Lost Hero, ended with a sort of cliffhanger, and involved my favourite character!!

This is what irks me most!

*Spoiler ahead!*

See, i have an extremely soft spot for the title character Percy Jackson. Be it because he was portrayed by Logan Lerman, or because having read all 5 books on him, or just being son of Poseidon... i don't know, i just do. I have always loved the main characters in a book anyways.

I was extremely impatient to finish The Lost Hero because there were mentions of Percy Jackson throughout the book, and i wanted to know what happened to him.

Alas, before i even finish, i could already guessed what has happened and i was right! But i didn't expect it to be a cliffhanger!

You can imagine my frustration! He didn't even appear in the book, i don't even know what exactly happened to him (or will happen to him)... and i have to wait till Autumn this year!!

To top it off i don't really like the title character (in The Lost Hero) Jason Grace because he seemed to be like... more superior than Percy Jackson, and i'm kiasu like that because i have always preferred my favourite character to be the most powerful one what turf.

(only exception to be Ron Weasley because Weasley is King and all that)

Anyways, i am extremely glad that the next book would be entirely about him! I have thought that he would just be a minor character in this whole series because of some synopsis i read about this book, and i thought the next book is titled "Son of Jupiter" (who is Jason Grace)... but i was wrong! Only in this book, so yeah! =D

And the most embarrassing would be that the next book is actually "Son of Neptune" (who is Percy Jackson)... NOT Jupiter... and i have absolutely NO IDEA how i read it as "Son of Jupiter" initially! And i only realized this after finishing the first book, and AFTER wiki-ing the second book's summary!! OMGWTFBBQSUPERMANBANANAULTRAMAN.

Can i blame it on exam pressure?

I guess all there is to do is wait... but really, i can't wait for Autumn for the second book! Hope it'll be released on time! =D

ps: Yeah this post is just to rant how frustrated i am with the ending being a cliffhanger and how i have to wait... and er, that's about it. Yeap, there's no proper content i know. T^T

I feel there's not even a proper ending to this post, and am actually afraid how i can't even write a proper Blog post now to save my life! *gasp*

pps: I know i sound like some little kid or deluded teenager happily blabbing about Percy Jackson *coughkidsbookcough* what turf but truth be told, the explanation deserves a whole new entry of its own, so just wait! Teehee!

If you have heard...

2011-05-02T07:13:00.004+08:00

This song has been on repeat the past few days, JoKyu version.

Because i love listening to his voice, i can keep saying how proud i am of him for his perfect pronunciation and this gave me great luck during mahjong too. 8D

Then again, as this song is so emo, it made me emo... and can't help but feel that the lyrics are like describing my feelings at the moment.

Nothing relationship-y, but rather the first verse.

突然發現站了好久　不知道要往哪走
還不想回家的我　再多人陪只會更寂寞
許多話題關于我　就連我也有聽過
我的快樂要被認可　委屈卻沒有人訴說
夜把心洋蔥般剝落　拿掉防衛剩下什麽
爲什麽脆弱時候　想你更多

I can sit there not knowing where to go, or what to do. Like... just stone.

Well, i know i should be studying but yeah i haven't so sue me.

And truth be told, i've never felt so lonely in my life.

I'm so glad of my friends around me, yet i've never felt lonelier.
I enjoy their company very much, but i also find myself wanting alone time just so i can emo and sulk by myself.

Then again i'm afraid of being alone because it just makes me more emo what the turf.

I may snap at people when i'm in a bad mood, but i never like spreading my emo-ness or sadness. That's just wrong. So what better than being alone to sulk? But like i said, i don't want to be alone, i want to go out... yet when i'm out i just want to go back to my room so i can sulk.

Contradicting emo piece of bitch. Let's just hope it's the hormones talking.

I can't wait to go home.

So you see...

2011-04-24T18:40:00.004+08:00

I've always thought that a person's thoughts and feelings are more important than what they do to express that thought, because sometimes i am so too.

Then now, i realize that's probably just an excuse not to act, because in the end, action always speaks louder than words... and it really is.

Sometimes people can say all they want, but when they don't do it, the whole "speech" can be rendered redundant in the end.

I'm glad i realized it sooner than being pulled along, because at one point, i really believed those words, till when things happened, and you know it's all just talk, but no "walk".

I'm grateful though, because this also gave me the realization never to do so: unless you really mean it, otherwise don't say it.

Oh yeah!

Just because.

2011-04-23T23:06:00.002+08:00

JoKyu is amazing. 8D

I'm so proud of him, as always. ♡

Dear U.

2011-04-07T04:07:00.001+08:00

Words really cannot express how much you meant to me, and knowing myself, i tend to be rather horrible at expressing myself... but yeah, i meant everything i say.

U, the one who i am always meanest to.

U, the one who i laughed at the most.

U, the one who i look at the most.

U, the one who i think of the most.

U, the one who never fail to make me smile.

U, the one who have the most nicknames.

U, my 희철 아빠.

Regardless of what i may have said when it started, i was just confused then, but looking back... i realized it was you to begin with, and it always has.

Happy birthday. ♡

Spring is here!

2011-03-25T05:36:00.001+08:00

I miss the snow, but bloom flowers BLOOM!! 8D

That first week.

2011-03-04T08:42:00.005+08:00

When i returned from KL back to Oxford for my second sem, things sure were a lot different.

I was not as homesick; i guess perhaps i'm used to being back here?

That said, the trip home was much needed. To soak up on food (oh look at the weight i've put, which was all so worth it!), the sun and just being home.

It certainly helped curbed the aching feeling of wanting to go home every other day last year!

Though, the first week back this time round was pretty hell-ish.

It was straight to classes as i've skipped a week of class to be home for Chinese New Year.

But classes aside, being back here - at the airport, on The Airline, lugging your luggage two floors up to your room... then unpacking and basically just settling down... it actually brought back horrible feelings from when i first got here last year in September.

Last year when i first got here, sure i was excited yes, but the novelty dies off the very night i arrived, when i was in my room by myself... no annoying brother and cousins to annoy, no cats to abuse, no parents to bully... and it struck me that i will be by myself here, in this place, for the next couple of months.

I miss home so badly... and being in a foreign place where everything is different... it's just horrible.

I remember crying almost everyday for the first week, and i took 3 weeks or more before i had the courage to Skype home with my parents after i was sure i was more or less settled... because i know seeing them/ hearing them would only make me cry and i would very badly want to go home.

I didn't even dare to call home because hearing their voice would certainly made me pack my bags that instance and fly home!

Well, the spoilt pampered brat's more difficult time of adapting sure is over... but it surprises me how sometimes when the feeling of that first week creeps up to me, it still send shivers down my spine! =)

Excuse me.

2011-02-23T02:13:00.005+08:00

Since when was my TYPE young boys?? D8

It's really not a big issue when people who i'm not close to judge me as so, because they don't know me well enough so whatever lar... but when your ROOMMATE says *that*... wokay it's time to do some "reflection" before everyone else starts to think that i have craddle-snatching tendencies or something!!

YOUNG BOYS was NEVER my type.

I prefer guys who are not scruffy looking (although you can't deny some scruffy guys are hot!). You know, guys who knows how to take care of their appearance.

And just so happens the 90s generation boys are better at taking care of their appearance, what can i do about it right? That doesn't mean young boys are my type!

Even if young boys are really my type (which they are not), doesn't mean i can't like "older boys" too right?

It's nothing serious really, but i just want to rant this out while i have the mood to! Because i'm kinda tired of constantly being judged and stereotyped.

Like for example, just because i listen to mostly Pop music, doesn't mean i don't like songs from The Beatles.

Just because i like none scruffy guys, doesn't mean i don't find scruffy guys hot.

Just because i like Korean music, doesn't mean i am a K-drama addict! (actually i hate K-drama haha!)

Just because i can be a game addict, doesn't mean i'm a 24/7 gamer.

Just because i like food, doesn't mean everything in my life have to be solely about food.

And many many more.

I like having the freedom to like stuffs i want to like, instead of having to "oh because i like Korean music so i have to like everything Korean" etc etc.

I think it probably have to do with me being a Gemini. ㅋㅋ

(we can like a variety of things, perhaps we are just not that extreme. 8D)

I guess why small comments like this irks me much more than everyone else is because i hate being judged and stereotyped, same goes why i hardly does so to others. And when there's too many of such comments, it just push you off the edge that you absolutely have to rant them out!

But i guess just because you don't do so, doesn't mean others won't do so to you nya?

Now that i've rant it out i have nothing else to say! Let others think whatever they want, i know myself better! =D

So 끝.

It's been 3 years!

2011-02-22T01:29:00.004+08:00

3-years ago today, in 2008, is the first time i ever traveled by myself, to a place i've never been before, and which i don't (exactly) speak the language.

I also got to meet 4 of the nicest people ever, who were always really nice to me, to which i'm forever grateful to have known them!

Happy Seoul Girls Anniversary my girls! (^^ )

Back in Oxford.

2011-02-16T01:29:00.004+08:00

Sorry for the whole month of lack of updates!
Well, can't really blame me, hehe, was back home and enjoying every minute of it! 8D

But anyhoo, yeah i'm back in Oxford now, just updating this for the sake of updating, but promise will update with something soon!

Loving the clouds! =D

Being HOME is...

2011-01-12T00:02:00.001+08:00

... freaking ass AWESOME.

Mmm. 8D

2011 New Year Resolutions.

2011-01-01T01:11:00.005+08:00

Half the fun in making New Year Resolutions is to review it at the end of the year, and see which you have accomplished, and what you have not!

Although i've never accomplished any of my so-called "resolutions"... ever... the other half of the fun is the process of making it! So here it goes! 8D

LOSE WEIGHT.
Nuff said.
Be a better Blogger.
I vow to write a proper full entry about my 2008 till 2010!! Yes i can! GO!
Tweet more.
I can't believe i'm saying this, but yeah... i've not tweet as much as i would've like this year!
Tweet with content.
Yeah, nonsensicals like "VRA COOKIE MONSTER" isn't actually content no?
Show love and gratefulness to people who matters.
Because they deserve every ounce of it! 8D
Stop being so hormonal.
TEEHEE.
Prioritize.
Get my priorities straight.
Be a better fan.
You'll be surprised at how bad a fan i've become i feel ashamed of calling myself an ELF sometimes.
Dress up.
Stop being so lazy, and please at least put some effort before going out!
Sleep early.
8D
Be more decisive.
Because i am super indecisive meh.
Stop procrastinating.
Meh.
U.
That's for me to know, and you to find out. (^^ )

All set for the new year! Let's go! 8D

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2011!!

2011-01-01T00:39:00.003+08:00

With best wishes for this New Year, and may this year be even Awesomer than the last! 8D

With many love from the Fat Family. ♡

Yes we can! 8D

Review of 2010's New Year Resolutions.

2010-12-31T00:48:00.002+08:00

This is a review of this!

2010 New Year Resolutions.

~~Go for an Island Holiday~~.
Didn't happen, but oh well! This year is another year! 8D
~~Be a better Blogger~~.
I didn't see much difference really, teehee!
Be better at expressing my feelings for others.
Not good, but getting better i feel. 8D
~~Be humble~~.
Meh.
~~Make an effort to dress up when i go out~~.
MEH 10 TIMES ROUND. Not even when i was in Oxford and i could not cite "weather" as an excuse rofl. D8
~~Lose weight~~.
I gained weight, does that count? AKML.
~~Stop being so lazy~~.
...
~~Learn a musical instrument~~.
Does Rock Band count? I'm getting pretty good at being the lead guitarist. 8D
~~Stop procrastinating too much~~.
Tweet less.
Somehow i actually did, haha!
~~Stop being so random and retarded~~.
On the contrary i ended up being even more random and retarded. 8D
~~To be more evil and mean~~.
Has always been so that it's not something a simple "New Year Resolution" can change. 8D
U.
Success! And i love U so much! ♡

So overall i've only accomplished three no? Hmm, interesting... ㅋㅋ

Now on to the next year let's GO!! 8D

2010-12-21T12:14:00.002+08:00

And i quote myself from Twitter:

"Sometimes when things had happened, you don't need a solution, you just need to cry. When you didn't, it piles up and you will dai."

Ah, i love random nonsensicals from myself. ♡

Disappointed.

2010-12-19T02:44:00.001+08:00

Just very disappointed.

Oh well. Let's GO GO GO!! 8D

Of getting coloured hair and all.

2010-12-16T07:27:00.006+08:00

Ah, how amusing is it when people assume you dye your hair because you want to be "angmoh", how fun! 8D

Ever since i graduated from high school, i dyed my hair once, let it grow and cut off the dyed bits... then dyed my hair again... and has never ever went back since!

The reason: because it's so much more fun coloured!

If i see the same colour on my head day-in-day-out i'll get bored, and no offence to anyone with (naturally) black hair, but i honestly find black hair on myself boring!

Although yeah, pudding hair's no fun, but yeah... still better than natural black!

Even this time, though i requested for a darker colour (because very sien to see pudding hair sometimes, and also in case i won't be going back it'll be easier to dye my hair myself here), but alas, it's still so bright. 8D

And yeah... i'm getting sick of dark-coloured hair rofl.

Wonder what colour to go next? ㅋㅋㅋ

If i may...

2010-12-16T02:15:00.002+08:00

... use this pic below by Maggie Market to describe my current state...

Yeap, that's what i'm doing at the mo, instead of studying. 8D

Teehee!

Jo KyuHyun.

2010-12-15T04:25:00.004+08:00

Yeah, that's just the way i like to spell his name. =P

그냥 ㅋㅋㅋ.

He's just Awesome like that. =D

I like how he is super effing Awesome LIVE.

If you think he sounds good on CD, wait till you hear him LIVE. Freaking amazing!

He has the mark of an amazing singer, because i honestly prefer to listen to LIVE versions of his songs. (^^ )

But what i like most about KyuHyun's singing, is the "feeling" you get when you listen to him sing. You can really feel what the song is about, even if you don't understand the lyrics.

I am (sorta) surrounded(?) by people who have the perception that Super Junior only have the looks, but lacks the talent in every single way... or in other words, "idol artist".

Not that i need to prove to them how Awesome the boys are, not that i need to be reassured that the boys memang is Awesome...

But i like the feeling of being able to have that smug look on my face when people say that. 8D

And yeah, as usual, i won't bother to argue because too lazy! ㅋㅋㅋ

... hmm... oh holy marshmallows, i'm turning into an "old"(er) fangirly aren't i?? D8

Edit: I kept replaying the vid now! I wish Youtube has a repeat button what turf i'm lazy.

This brings back fond memories when after hearing Kyu's "7 Years of Love" (LIVE - because he's just awesome that way) i repeated that song so often on my iPod i think my iPod is starting to hate me weeeeeeeeeeeeee. 8D

What does this mean?

2010-12-10T00:53:00.003+08:00

Edit 4.37am, Dec 10th, 2010:

I think i was just tired.

I guess i felt it when the messaged has sinked in.

But ah, i'm weak aren't i?? (^^ )

---

I was distracted the whole morning.

I don't know if it was because i slept too much, if this was the aftermath of not sleeping the whole night before... or if there was too much on my mind?

Then there was something i need to finish, which got me quite "gan cheong" and then "geram".

That in the end, despite reading all the Tweets and all... it's just not sinking in.

I didn't cry, i didn't feel sad, there was just no feeling. I really don't know why.

Is this a hint or a starting point to leaving?

I really really don't know.

What does a Blog mean to you?

2010-12-06T06:36:00.005+08:00

A Blog is a place for you to publish your thoughts and memories, so in the future you can look back and reminisces the things which you had done and what not etc.

Once again, i promise to put more effort into Blogging, really (yeah, been saying this since a year back haven't i?)... because it suddenly hit me that time is passing so fast, before i realize it i'm getting older... and the older i get, the more memories i accumulate... that eventually i'll probably forget some of those random thoughts and memories. Especially those fangirl-accounts and random moments!

I also realized i didn't write them down anywhere else too so yeah... what if i forget them? *dramatic gasp rofl*

That said, am busy with coursework and all now, will do it soon perhaps?

Teehee! =P

And that all said... i really HAVE to stop procrastination!! (ㅠ.ㅠ )

がんばって 파이팅 GO GO GO!! 8D

It's snowing in Oxford!

2010-12-02T08:26:00.005+08:00

It is super super super super super cold! Brrrrrrrrr!

You say you will dress up, but when it's sooooooooo cold, the only thing you want is to stay warm... perhaps with *coughChoiSiWoncough* a warm cup of Hot Chocolate ♡.

Ooh!

This brings back lovely memories of Winter 2008 with the girls. ㅋㅋㅋ 8D

On dressing up and what not.

2010-11-25T02:19:00.005+08:00

Loving mah furry boots!

I should stop (procrastinating? being lazy?) and really start to dress up when i go out!!

What happened to all the stuffs i said before i got here? ㅋㅋㅋ

Because before you know it, i'll be back and then complaining that i can't dress up because it's too hot blah-blah-blah.

I really am too lazy muhaha.

Ooh look boots! 8D

ALM

2010-11-20T21:40:00.007+08:00

You suck. (ㅠ.ㅠ)

2010-11-20T21:40:00.006+08:00

You know what i find funny?

People who coin themselves as "real musicians", and then proceed to insult and ridicule idol groups saying they only have looks and no talent etc etc.

Yeah, you may be "real musicians" who have "talent" and all that, but look who is the one whining now?

You are not the one out there performing and earning the big bucks. Why? Is it because you lack the talent, or you just lack the good looks?

If you are not the one out there making it big, there's a big possibility that maybe it's only YOU who is thinking very highly of yourself, but you actually lack everything.

Blame it on the fans and music industry people who are out to squeeze every single cent from fangirls who very voluntarily hands out their money. Like it or not, it's all about the profit.

But please don't blame the idol groups just because nobody wants to give you ze money voluntarily.

Yes, there are people who are extremely talented who are not getting the limelight they deserve because consumers are easily distracted by all that glitter and sparkles.

But you never see those people WHINE.

They know they are good, they do not need to ridicule others just to prove they are good. They just keep improving themselves instead of staying at one place and whine.

Seriously, if you think you are good and you know it, keep it to yourselves. There is a fine line between being a talented musician, and being a big-headed musician with meh-okok-nya talent.

Leave the whinings to your fans, if you have any that is.

You need to achieve legendary status before you can even afford to be arrogant and big-headed.

If not, just stick to being humble, or pretend to be. Nobody likes an arrogant toerag.

Ok 끝.

ps: Rofl this is actually not about my boys (because mine's are Awesome ♡!), but another idol group instead. Some controversial stuffs happened when they visited somewhere, and i really can't help but to want to rant out my feelings. =)

Oxford - The City of Dreaming Spires.

2010-11-18T20:55:00.003+08:00

Oxford.

The City of Daydreaming for me.

OMG i should stop the procrastination. (ㅠ.ㅠ )

Why shopping online is awesome.

2010-11-18T08:03:00.002+08:00

When everything arrives at the same time. =D

Holy moly hot chocolate with marshmallows atop all things which is Awesome.

Oh yeah. ♡

ps: Not all mine lar!! 8D

U.

2010-11-16T00:52:00.003+08:00

Whatever i've said before, it was U from the start till the end.

Regardless.

2010-11-16T00:44:00.004+08:00

I'll be honest.

My Super Show 2's memories were not as vivid as Super Show and Super Show 3.

Regardless, reliving the memories.

Because who would've known that after Super Show 2, so many things would've happened.

Regardless...

I love the boys so much. ♡

Oh yeah! Super Show! 8D

Hello Blog!

2010-11-13T23:22:00.003+08:00

I really have not Blogged for the longest time! =P

And thus i've only just found out that to put coloured words on my Blog, i had to input it manually, as opposed to before i could just use the Blogspot tab!

I don't know if it's Blogspot's "new thing", or possible because of Google Chrome (which i changed from Mozilla)? Either way yeah, it sucks meh.

I promise to Blog more often! I really do! *sheepish snigger* ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ

Here's a pic to appease the angry souls teehee!

The Awesome sky of Oxford!

Sometimes you really don't realize stuffs until it happens.

And when you do, it's up to the individual whether they drew the positive or negative side from it.

Happy 5th Anniversary.

2010-11-06T01:24:00.011+08:00

I remember when i first heard of Super Junior.

I was a TVXQ! fan then, in 2006... and apart from SuJu being their junior - what's with the collaborations and all! - it's not difficult to not know about them, what's with the 12 members and all!

From someone who is a J-Pop fan, you can't help comparing them to Morning Musume =P.

I only remember three members then, SungMin, SiWon and KangIn.

And yeah, i used to think HeeChul looks like a girl, and RyeoWook is a day younger than me!

That's about it.

Then, there was Mystery 6.

As a horror movie fan, of course i couldn't miss this!
And that's how it all started. =D

The song Miracle just sticks itself to your head!

Then came U.

And also TVXQ!'s concert in Malaysia where they were guest performers.

And it all changed then.

I became an ELF. And never for a moment have i looked back. ♡

Then flying to Bangkok to see them in 2007... we were going to Bangkok then, just postponed the date a little so i can catch them there. =D

And then 2008.

Super Junior's first concert, The 1st ASIA TOUR - "Super Show".

I've saved up some money, and decided that i really wanted to see them, so for the first time ever, i actually traveled alone! To a place where i've never even been to before, and it was winter!

Now thinking back, i have no idea what made me do so!

I have not traveled alone before prior to that, and more over mid-end winter where it'll be super cold! I just know i absolutely have to be there for the concert, and so i did. =D

And i have no regrets!

Because apart from being there for the boys' first concert, there's where i met 4 amazing girls, who i considered some of my closest friends! ♡

We came from different parts of the world, we are totally different people with different cultures and language... and we don't even see or talk to each other on a daily basis!

But every time i meet them, i can't help but to feel that i am extremely close to them lols! And especially that they accepted me for the weird person i am with all my annoying habits and what not =P.

If you think about it, the boys were the ones who bought all of us together. Teehee!

And from there it goes till now. (^^ )

All the fond memories. ♡

Especially our Seoul Girls memories ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ. ♡

I wasn't exactly there since it begin.

But i was there for the 1st Anniversary, and i will always be there to celebrate each and every Anniversary.

I love you boys so much. Thank you for everything.

Happy 5th Anniversary. ♡

I will update soon.

2010-11-04T10:30:00.002+08:00

I promise i will update very very soon, i is sorry Blog. (ㅠ.ㅠ )

ps: This Blog is still alive, it still is!!

Hello from Oxford!

2010-10-08T00:43:00.003+08:00

Sorry for the super lack of updates!

First few days were horrible, but it's getting better. The more i learn about Oxford, the more i'm felling in love with it. =)

I love how old the city is, and how rich the histories are (were?).

As much as i miss home, i will learn to appreciate every minute i am here.

Let's do this baby! 8D

This Blog is still ALIVE.

2010-09-25T07:30:00.009+08:00

I assure you this Blog is still alive. Really!! =D

Will try my best to update soon, because truth be told, i really don't know what to write, hehehe!

So here's my most favourite-st MV in the whole world, by my Awesome boys. ♡

Super Junior. 8D

I remember...

2010-09-20T23:20:00.001+08:00

When i first came to the United Kingdom.
It was for my eldest brother's convocation in July 1999.

My parents, second bro and i arrived at the Manchester airport in the morning.
I remember passing the immigration with my dad, and the nice lady asked me my reason for traveling, and i replied it was for my brother's graduation.

She smiled and added, well maybe in the future it will be your turn to come to study in the UK.

11 years later, a little slow, but hey, i'm here to study like my brother did!
Something i had dreamed of since then. 8D

Oh yeah! Let's do this thing! =D

2010-09-20T04:45:00.004+08:00

I seriously don't want to think negatively of someone.

I like that person a lot, so having to think negatively really hurts.

But sometimes... i guess... once you've seen someone's true colours, and finally admitted to it...

It's really difficult for you to see anything else anymore.

You can try convincing yourself, again and again, that it is not so.

But in the end, it will still prevail.

It just hurts.

Super Show 3.

2010-09-18T22:47:00.002+08:00

Backdated post of 15th August 2010.

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If you think Super Show 1 and 2 was purr-fect...

Super Show 3 puts everything out of the way. ♡

For believing in something.

2010-09-14T19:20:00.004+08:00

"If we don't stand up for what we believe in and don't stand up for our rights pretty soon we're going to have as much rights as the meat on our bones."
- Lady Gaga

It gets frustrating when you personally believe in something which you feel will help the environment, and instead of being supported or ignored, you are laughed at, made fun of... or worst, being ridiculed and "challenged".

That said, i'm not giving up, because i know if i did (give up), it wouldn't be me.

At least i try to make a difference. Do you?

2010-08-25T17:42:00.002+08:00

My bro ordered whale meat while we were having lunch today in a traditional sushi-restaurant, and i actually cried when the plate was served to our table.

He took it to the other table to eat with my cousin brother, but the damage was done upon seeing it, and i immediately cried FEL.

I'm not crying because he ordered whale meat. I'm not crying because of the environment bla-bla-bla (because i realized i could never live up to my own's expectation i'm weak AKTEL)... but rather i'm crying because i felt pity and sorry for the poor whale.

During my last trip to Australia, i was very lucky to be able to go for a whale watching cruise.

Seeing these grand magnificent animals swimming right next to the boat (out of pure-luck, because we are not allowed to approach the whales but luckily, when they came up to breath they appeared right next to our boat!!), despite that i was puking my guts out from being sea-sick, it was an awesomely awesome feeling no words can truly describe the feeling! It was just pure-awesomeness and more!

And thinking of the fact that an animal so magnificent having to die for human greed is just sad.

Maybe the meat today was not from a humpback (the one i saw the other day was a humpback). Maybe it's not even endangered. Maybe there's an abundant of them in the ocean(?)!

But the fact remains it's still a whale.

Unless it was breed for its meat, nothing is going to "make me feel better" because in the end the whale was still hunted and killed for its meat.

The whale was probably a mother (i don't know how strict Japanese whaling laws are, but they kill tons of whales every year so i won't be surprised if it's actually lenient). Baby whales only leave their mother when they are FIVE-years-old. So what is going to happen to the baby then?

We don't and won't know.

But all i know is a whale was cruelly killed for its meat. And i just felt really sad for the whale. And i'm also sorry for contributing to what could possibly be more whales dying (for its meat) in the future.

When the buying stops, the killing can too. You know the saying.

My favourite animals are marine animals. I love the ocean, i love the beach... i love sea turtles, sharks, dolphins and whales.

And to see them being served as a fucking meal is just wrong.

ESPECIALLY when it has to be served on the same table i'm eating from!!

AKML for crying in public, and everyone's for the whole drama happening, and the whale's for being ordered today. May the poor thing rest in peace =(.

ps: If you would please leave livestocks out of this. I don't find a need to explain myself to people who are out to find a wrong point in me so as to justify themselves.

Finding someone else's fault to justify your own actions is never a right justification, no?

My messed-up Japanese.

2010-08-22T20:19:00.002+08:00

My bro and i wanted to get some ice-cream, so he asked...

Bro: "Do you have money?"

(ok, i'm sure he didn't ask this way, but ever since Hyuk and that line of his in Fullhouse, i can never utter that phrase in any other way but Hyuk's face AKML.)

Me: *spontaneously* "かね없어."

Bro: "..."

Me: "..."

Bro: "HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!" *couldn't stop laughing*

Me: T^T.

It's as messed up as the way i look at ￥YEN as ￦WON. A few times i had ask my brother before paying, to make sure that i've paid the correct amount, and i did not overspent.*

AKML.

*I have the tendency to view ￥1000 as ￦1000, which is VERY VERY DIFFERENT in terms of value.

I also have the tendency to go "8D *overjoyed*" at ￥980 till i realized how much it really is AKMLTTM.

Super epic!Seoul

2010-08-11T17:18:00.000+08:00

That is the name of my trip this time around!

Because everything have been epic! of all sorts!

And just today has been epic!phail! (actually yesterday too but today is extra epic! so... yeah!)

But it's ok, am still all 8D!

Will update soon with more epic!ness (preferably the good ones ㅋㅋㅋ)!

Toodley-doo! 8D

Boy-Boy.

2010-08-11T17:12:00.003+08:00

Three years since you've been gone.

And bad me, because i was in Seoul and everything, i totally forgot about it.

That said, i knew i forgot something, but i couldn't figure what out till i remembered the date today.

Every time i think of you, it aches my heart knowing that you've left. That you've really left.

But i'll always smile at all the happy memories you've brought me =).

I'm sorry that i've been such a bad owner. Horrible horrible owner.

But i want you to know since the day i got you, i've love you with all my heart, and i still do now.

Please take good care of yourself and the rest of the gang over at the rainbow bridge.

I love you so much. ♡

I should be updating...

2010-08-02T20:03:00.002+08:00

But i really don't know what to write (= =").

So i shall leave you with a picture of Abraham *coughHeeChul'sbrothercough*.

Because i love him so much ♡.

Go figure who i meant 8D.

ps: Follow me on Twitter here!

Shopping in Seoul.

2010-07-22T22:53:00.001+08:00

Because everyone love a shopping post =D?
(yes, another overdue post (=v=")...)

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My room the night i got home!

Trust me, messier than usual. =P

The clothes.

Mostly shirts, so no point going through one-by-one so... yeah...

Present from Cousin!

13 =D!

Super Show 2 shirt!

For my niece!

Present from Gengmille and Hollie-Won! Thank you XD!

Beauty-products loot! =D

Lower corner left - nail polishes.
Top corner left - Etude hairband, pouch, nail-polish remover.
Top middle - Free cotton-pads.
Top corner right - Etude hairbrush, hand mask.
Lower corner right - Masks. Effing-loads of MASK =D!

Freebies!

Blackhead-erasing-stick.
Doesn't really work (= =").

Pimple-spot-sticker-thing.
Doesn't really work as well, but it's nice to use =D!

Hand mask!
Haven't use! =P

Free-poster from Etude House! MinHo!~

And ze other stuffs which are mostly mad love ♡!!

And other random stuffs which i really malas to explain all. =D

Pooh sticker for niece and CDs!

Post-its.
Effing-loads-of-post-its.
Oh gosh i love post-its ♡.

Stickers =D!
Effing-load of stickers! ♡

Super Show 2 merchandises (^^ )!

Lined up for 2 hours under the rain for it meh.
But love it! ♡

Mags!

And the reason i got them was because of...

Oh yeah. ♡

And my favourite sticker!

~~Because i think she resembles me hee =D.~~

And more random stickers ~~which i haven't used haha~~!

Like HeeChul and i ♡!

And this i did use!

For Angel!

And last "bonus" pic:

HeeChul ♡ 아빠.

And you can see who HeeChul doesn't really like.

Hmm...

To a better day =D.

2010-07-20T00:30:00.002+08:00

I do not believe in treating someone in a more "special way" just because i want to rip some benefit off that person, and then ignore them after (until when needed).
This is because i myself do not like to be treated that way, and therefore i feel i should not do so too.

If you treat someone with truth, and er, whole heartedly, that person should and would know, and will be able to feel your sincerity and care.

If they don't, it's either that person is taking you for granted, or it might just mean that you have to try harder.

Or maybe, from the beginning, and always, you really are just using that person so to benefit yourself only.

Today, i thought maybe i had it wrong... again... and chose to give you benefit of the doubt... again... but you choose to let me be right... again...

Multiple "again" because this is not the first time i had thought so. In fact, i lost count because it has been so long!
Countless times i tried to convince myself that i was wrong, but... well apparently, i was wrong in being wrong.

I won't say it's "giving chances" or whatsoever, how arrogant will that seem!

But rather, it's because i chose to believe in you all these while, and maybe somewhere in me, i really really want myself to be wrong, that you really cared for me, and not just for any gain to yourself.

Oh well!

Thank you for letting me see who you really are all these while!
I'm not saying this in a cynical way, but truthfully, i really am!

You may say that i have changed. You may give reasons for why you had acted that way (by blaming that it is "my fault" - not the first time). You may make up stories so to seem like the "victim" (as always, and i am the "bad guy" boohoohoo *sarcasm*), etc etc.

Though truth be told, it takes two to tango no?
Maybe i do have faults myself, but don't you think if you had not acted that way (only approaching me for the benefits), maybe things wouldn't have turned out this way?

Whatever it may be, i know i'm not losing out on anything, or am i?
Probably someone who i can rely on when i needed someone?
That said, past experience has told me that, even when i was deluded before and thought you were really someone i could count on, yet... you had failed me countless times then.
So what makes you think things will change in the future?

Really, be what it may be, i just know that it will be mighty silly of me to ever think i could depend on you again.

I'm not putting a blame on anyone, but rather, it's more to maybe we just want different things.

I want someone who i can rely on and not to be contacted only when you can rip some or any sort of benefit from it.
You want someone who you could manipulate and use, or rather, someone who will always be there for you only when you want them. ~~(and tucked away neatly not-to-be-seen when not needed what turf)~~

So yeah, let's just go our different ways! =D

I know due to certain reasons that tie may not be severed completely whatever happens, so i'm choosing to er, "be there" just for obligation purposes, but not because you are in any way that special person to me you once was.

Not because i know better now, but because honestly, i cannot bear to er, for lack of better word, "be disposable" anymore.
It hurts more than you think really.

And yes, to end it with my usual stride:
SUCK IT MAN!! 8D
(nah, it's a just because thing, it is in no way cryptic nor aimed at anyone.)

ps: OMG this sounds like a post-breakup letter or something i ASSURE you it is NOT. Rather, it is someone who i thought of more like a friend, but who had disappointed me countless times.
I'm sorry if it was misleading meh.

pps: I am not planning on telling that person, because as mentioned, they will come out with all sorts of reason (rather drama really) to justify themselves and i will seem like the "bad guy" and all, and quite frankly, i am seriously tired of all the dramas.

ppps: I'm not the "good guy" either though.
I'm just very very selfish, and would like to put myself ahead of everything else 8D.
Yes, my feelings matters most!

Ok bye!

Edit: I guess some people will never change. Not guilty whatsoever now, just glad i realize it early!
Oh and note, guilt instilling from said mentioned doesn't work anymore. Glad!
Because i've seen the error of my ways, and can clearly see the hidden message and meaning behind it all =).

Either ways, because i'm too lazy to be involved anymore... 끝.

2010-07-19T03:09:00.000+08:00

Sometimes, somethings just show that just because you know someone for a long time, doesn't mean that you know that someone, or that someone knows you.

Same with the fact that just because someone knows a lot of random facts about you, it doesn't necessarily mean that the person really know you know you.

Because if the person really know you, put it this way, they would've understand you regardless.

The length of a past can never tell anything, but rather, actions can say it all.

And i'm glad it did, even if it means having to put bits-and-pieces together in order to see the whole picture.

Seoul in My Heart.

2010-07-15T12:13:00.002+08:00

A little overdue (ok, by a lot! I actually left for Seoul today... a year ago =P), but better than never? =D

50 over pics!
And because i'm Awesome i'm cramming 2-weeks into one post hee!
(with no proper timeline and all etc FYL?? XD)

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What you do when you're on a 7-hour flight alone =D!

Yes, i'm a waste of space, paper and environment.
COOKIE MONSTER!! Om nom nom!

We've arrived =D!

Never fails to excite me every time i see this (although only twice rofl) =)!

After checking-in (waited a glorious 2-3 hours for my room, gosh... thankful for the cozy lobby and the really nice dude who tried to get me my room asap!), off to explore Seoul and visit my cousin =D!

This place is like, a must, every time. First stop =D!

So many memories, both happy and really retarded XD!
(Ex: QQzela and Minnie at 4am, Geng with GengMille and Minnie, Fluffy with Gengmille and EagleEye XD! ♡)

Yummy dinner with ze cous!

So. So. SO AWESOME.
Thin-pork-slices mmm. ♡

The next day, ah, Namsan 남산 in the morning!

Met up with Gengmille and Hollie-Won, and Coffee Prince!!

Love the shops and cafe in Seoul!

This is at Hongdae 홍대, near Coffee Prince!

Insadong 인사동!

Cute-poop-red-bean-biscuit!

Kyochon @ Apkujeong 압구정!

Mmm ♡!!

Memories ♡.

Memories are beautiful, never let you go...
♡.

Dinner after Super Show on Sunday!

Kimbap, mandoo, danmuji and rabokki cup-noodle! =D

With Gengmille and Hollie-Won at the subway!

Teehee!
KBS!

I love this so much i love this so much I LOVE THIS SO MUCH!! (from Ediya!)

Apkujeong 압구정 again!

That's SoShi's van btw =D!
We saw HongKi too!

Mmm!
(ok to be honest the toast tasted a bit weird with the sprinkles, but i still like the burger!)

Dinner!!
JaJangMyeong 자장면 and TangSuYuk 탕수육!!

At CheongGyeCheon 청계천!

Best Tonkatsu EVER!!

Must have! ♡

Rabohkki 라볶이 =D!!

This is soooooooo good!

McDs in Korea!

Shrimp burger ♡!

Ok, why am i uploading food pics at this hour (ㅠ.ㅠ)...??

Anyhoo, at Seoul University 서울대입구, lunch with ze cous after her classes!

Oh gosh i miss this sooooooo much.

Japanese-style, but miss this too!! It's so good!

At Time-Out in Apkujeong 압구정!

Noms!

Effing effing spicy but i miss this too (ㅠ.ㅠ)...

Mad for Garlic!

Have never tried this, but anything with garlic = awesome =D!

Road-side stall at Apkujeong 압구정!!

Tteokbokki 떡볶이 and everything nice!

Favourite place!

MyeongDong 명동!

Yummy steamboat!!

PatBingSu 팥빙수!~

EDIYA!!!

This i miss a weeeee bit too much (ㅠ.ㅠ)...
(the shop i get Ice-Chocolate from every morning for a week!)

=D!

♡

Lotte World!

Haha, i opted to save my ￦￦ for shopping and so i didn't went in =P!

=D!

Red Mango!

Red bean and pearls. Mmm ♡.

Etude House in MyeongDong 명동!

I think there's 5 in MyeongDong itself, went into every single one of them. Bliss!

Last day (ㅠ.ㅠ)...

Taking the airport bus to Incheon.

Haha, my super huge bag!

And it's not the only bag =P!

A huge-ass picture of myself is customary(?)!
(PS-is-awesome. I was looking very (= =") from all the late nights etc.)

Bye Seoul!! ♡
Am missing you already! 8D

Samurai Blue.

2010-07-13T20:01:00.001+08:00

8 years, 3 World Cups, and this still remains my team ♡.

It's ok, onwards to the next World Cup 2014 8D. ♡

ps: Please have prettier jerseys next time.
I'm contemplating supporter-tee for this World Cup because i'm sure i'll look funny in this term's official jersey (ㅠ.ㅠ)...

pps: I look absolutely awesome in the 2002 one, just saying. =D

Viva la Espana!

2010-07-12T19:51:00.003+08:00

It's a wonderful feeling seeing the team you truly support wins 8D!!
Casillas! ♡

And proof that i am NOT a jinx. ♡

Om-nom-nom.

2010-07-09T02:03:00.003+08:00

Just a few pics from dinner the other day!

We love Sakae! (well, we love the cheap sushi hee =D!)

Anytime is a selca-time!

Even in the toilet tee-hee!

The team!

Less than three you guys, less than three! ♡

Then some pics before leaving!

Ok, sorry for the lame tags, i don't know what else to put =P!

Love this picture of AhMa and i!

Can't wait for the exams to be over to be out with the team =D!!

Good luck and all the best!

On Twilight.

2010-07-06T23:40:00.003+08:00

A friend's friend and i had this conversation about Twilight the other day.

I maintain that i will watch the third movie (since i have watched the first and second one), and as much as i dislike the film (because of the fans, not too-much the movie itself), i still like the book very much (though i got pretty bored with it dee - only read the whole series twice, unlike Harry Potter's unbroken record of 1282381927391723 times.).

The friend scoff and went on about how "a guy like this will never exist".

Which got me thinking if he meant whether a supposedly "perfect-guy" like Edward will never exist, or if he meant vampires. Hmm.

Anyhoo, i was tired that day, it was my first time meeting the friend and i was definitely pissed and very malas to continue, but here's what i think (just need to get it off).

Well dude, fact remains a guy like that will DEFINITELY never exist.
Do you really think girls are that stupid to think such guys will exist? Or if they are just waiting for such guys, or think they can change any guy into such guy?
Maybe there are, but that's beside the point. I still find it a tad insulting that some guys really think that women are so. Please don't stereotype.

Furthermore, it's a proven fact that women rely more on imagination than graphic. So what if he doesn't exist, and never will exist? It's something to read, and to enjoy.

ps: Used to have a huge crush over Edward, not too much now, leaning more toward Jasper =D! (Both book and movie! Never liked Bella to begin with (even when i first read the book), but i super love Alice! And Alice and Jasper are the cutest thing ever ♡!)

Shop and drink?

2010-07-06T19:28:00.001+08:00

Let me tell you my favourite way of shopping.

When i shop (as in my main purpose of leaving the house is to shop), i will never dress up, but rather, i usually dress as comfortable as possible.
...
Well, i dress comfortable all the time but that's beside the point.

Anyways, yes, shorts, baggy(er) tee and flats.
And when you spend so much time out, naturally you get thirsty yes? So, you buy a drink.

I actually enjoy shopping much more when i have a drink in my hand. Yes, it's troublesome, but when you browse through clothes etc while drinking it's well... it's just nicer lar!!

However, today at The Curve just pissed me off big time.
I was having Coffee Bean's Ice-Blended Chocolate, and entered two shops, Padini Concept Store and Daiso, and was told that "Food and Drinks are Not Allowed" (so i have to leave lar basically).

Which actually pissed me off pretty badly.

My reasons:
I am NOT a 5-year-old kid.
In case you haven't notice, i am 23-years-old. And i was always told i look older than i really am, so yeah, what you want? I'm going to run around and purposely spill my drinks all over your display is it?

It's a DRINK.
In a cup, with lids. If ice-cream, i understand perfectly. This is a bloody DRINK. WITH LIDS.

Ok, we know accidents happens, so if really it did, i'll have to pay for it nya no?

I know this might sound pretty unreasonable to most, but like i care! I really really HATE IT when i can't shop just because i have a drink in my hand!!

VRA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *angry throws rotten tomatos at the two shops mentioned*

Found this the other day!

2010-07-03T19:05:00.001+08:00

When you go on a roll, you really roll! =D

This picture was from two-years ago during a MJ-session. I kept winning and all, and all out of a sudden, 天胡!
OH YEAH!! 天胡 BABY!! XD

Ah, if only i win like this again. ♡

Seaworld.

2010-07-02T18:04:00.004+08:00

More than a year since i got back pics are only up now haha sorry FYL for i am a TragicPhail!Blogger =D!!

So yeah, SEAWORLD XD!!

One of my favourite places in Aus!
(Because Dreamworld took down the chairlift which i love so much so BOOOOOO!)

And the first time i see a Loggerhead Turtle XD!

"HAROO!!"

Then off for the seal show =D! Effing nice!

That big fat California Sea Lion is ♡!!
(Some story about mafia and the police trying to catch them and all!)

And the BEST BEST BEST aquarium i've been to!

XD!
It's cool because unlike most aquariums which are indoor, this one is outdoor and it's like, you're really underwater in the sea =D =D =D!!

And the awesomest part of Seaworld ♡!!

DOLPHINS!!

DOLPHINS!!

DOLPHINS!!

DOLPHINS XD!!!

And in absolute close proximity effing Awesome ♡!!

HARO HARO 8D!!
They are super adorable, they just swim up to you and like... HARO XD!! ♡

There's also Polar Bears there =D!!

Hello adorable fat blubber ♡!! XD

And my favourite pic of it all:

I LOVE AUSTRALIA ♡.

It's my birthday!

2010-06-25T19:35:00.018+08:00

I'm 23 this year =D!

But i shall stick to tradition, and maintain that i am 17 this year!
OH YEAH FOREVER 17 teehee! (^^ )
(Although as my friend said, 21 would be the best age to be "forever" because it's the legal age lols!)

So yeah, i am pretty much horrible at telling stories, so i'll just let the pictures do the talking with my random retarded captions =D!

Naima Ave asked me out for dinner on the 19th at Chili's Empire Mall =D!

I can't remember what i said, then when Naima frowned i took this pic XD!

Ok, whose hand photobomb this picture hmm hmm? (it's Cheryl AhMa's btw.)

With Sharizal "Milk Pa" Teh Tarik!!

And Cheryl AhMa!

And special guest Lauren AhPoo!! XD

She was actually supposed to surprise me, but i saw her while we were waiting for our table hee XD!

Thank you so much guys ♡!!

Some pics!

Our side!

Paparazzi-shots of AhMa!

And mine =D!

Ice-Milo at Chilli's =D!

(as much as i like Milo, don't think will ever order it again - though this is the third time or so - because different outlets different taste, and this one's pretty watered like MEH!)

Then the food!!

My Southwestern Grilled Lamb!!

AhMa's Chicken Crispers!

Both taste totally good with Honey Mustard!!

And Naima's Portobello Mushroom Burger! (did i get it right?)

Mmm, ok i want burger now!!

Then after noms we were chatting and all, when suddenly the Chilli's staff came over with my cake!!!!!!!! ♡♡♡♡♡
YAH XD!!!

Totally wasn't expecting it!! THANK YOU SO MUCH GUYS!!! XD

RT's Strawberry Tart mmm ♡!!

Making a wish!~
(Haha, not telling you guys what i wished for =D!)

See the candles! Only 17 =D!

The candles were then all pushed way in and i had to get it out with my mouth!!

And comes tons of head-pushing, foundation-to-cake-transfer, strawberry rolling off cake, cream on face and kissing anyone near me to get the cream on their face's instead OH YEAH XD!

After dinner, i was told that there's another surprise for me!! WEEEEEEEE XD!

Naima covering me with my scarf so i can't see what they have in store for me ♡!

Yeap, it was pretty funny XD!!

Then Milk Pa, AhMa and AhPoo took off with my bag (silently) to prepare the surprise while Naima lead me to the surprise (where the whole way i couldn't shut up and kept yabbering hee)!

And waddya know!! MY SURPRISE XD!

BALLOONS AND MY PRESENT ♡!! XD
YAHHHHHHHHHH!!! ♡

My present with my girls ♡! Thank you i love you guys so much!

Sexy underwear woot!! XD

Group-shots =D!

Ballooooooonnsssssss!! ♡♡

The people who made it all happen ♡!

Yesh, Milk Pa included =D!

THANK YOU GIRLS SO SO SO SO SO MUCH!!
Effingly lucky to have you girls in my life really (^^ )!

And check this!!

OH YEAH XD!
Ooh, and on our way home someone actually highlight and honk at our car lols XD!

Surprises, Cake and presents, BALLOONS, good noms and Awesome people!!
(and 7-11 at 1-2am for milk teehee!)
What more can a birthday girl ask for (^^ )!!

THANK YOU!! ♡

What's my age again?

2010-06-20T14:38:00.007+08:00

I'm effing effing horrible with words, so i really don't know to express my gratitude properly, but i really really love and appreciate everything, and thank you guys SO SO SO MUCH!

You made my ~~23-year-old~~ 17-year-old birthday a blast!
I love you guys so so so so so much!

Thank you ♡!

Teh-Tarik-Blast! Hah! XD

ps: Will be posting more pics soon =D!

Of fools and idiots.

2010-06-15T01:33:00.004+08:00

I promised good karma till next month, but i really can't help it.

I like how Kpopsecrets gives good LOLS, but sometimes some stuffs rubbish writes just sends you off-course. The "!@#$%^&*" kind.

Honestly i don't know what i want to say, i'm just really angry because of that third line. To hell with my usual opinion on "everyone can have their own opinion". YOU MAY NOT LITTLE TURD.

It's fine you don't like him, but please don't act noble self-righteous shits saying rubbish like "but i rather see them whole with someone i don't like then broken apart". (it's THAN get your grammar straight - lol at myself for correcting others on grammar when mine is nonexistence as well weeeeeeee)

I don't want to pretend i know, or understand the boys, as i myself see my 4-years-fandom as some sort of a phail! most of the times.

But again i will say this. To hell what others think of me saying this:

You don't know him.
You don't know the rest of them.

With a freaking self-righteous limited mind as yours, you will NEVER EVER see YoungWoon with the rest of the boys the way i see them.

That said, one good thing that comes out from this whole thing...

Despite my 4-years of phail! fandom, at least i'm still better than you.

One of the best parts of L4D2.

2010-06-13T14:59:00.003+08:00

Having long-ass-names just-because.

Pigs can fly
Bieber is Awesome
PearlPorkFTW
Bieber Blast!

(ps: In case you think we are "Bieber-fans", you're wrong. He is our TeamTehTarik's sacrificial subject teehee!)

JoJoisshorterthanme
Nick
But im a LAAADDYYEEE!
Cheryl Ho is taller than me FHL

Miley Cyrus
Justin Bieber
Michael Jackson
(i also don't know sowee teehee!)

Oh yeah, we once had Paris Hilton too =D!

A tribute to a classmate of Poo's and i's =D!

My new crush is Jake Gyllenhaal
Coach
Super Ultimate Ninja Attack
Girlcrush on Kristen Stewart

The night we have nicks such as "I want Lok-Lok" and "I want Peanut Butter Waffle" too =D!

And we NEVER have the same names twice (except Justin Bieber, because let's face it, it's nice to friendly-fire him and let him be mauled by the infecteds. Bieber blast HAH! Teehee!).

Oh yeah!! XD

Of self-righteous people.

2010-06-13T14:18:00.005+08:00

If you've read Cheesie's latest entry...
Ok note, i'm not defending her just because she is one of my favourite Bloggers, but putting it from my point-of-view...

I don't believe she said: "Now everyone should go for guys for their looks first. You should follow what i say."
I honestly believe what she has posted is what she herself wants, and she doesn't have to go through her beliefs(?) and all by YOU right?

What's up with self-righteous people really?
You are self-righteous, good for you, please don't go unleash it onto other people because quite frankly, i'm pretty sure i rather live MY life, MY way, rather than YOUR way.

If you think about it, whatever i do *I* have to face the consequences MYSELF. You can go about preaching and being self-righteous, BECAUSE YOU DON'T HAVE TO FACE WHATEVER I DID.
No?

Not everyone is alike, and quite frankly, i rather be myself even with negative traits, than a self-righteous person.
Those self-righteous people are probably not even those "good-nice-people", just using their self-righteousness to conceal their not-nice-parts.
For example, someone who condemns others for being gold diggers, when they themselves are one, but they find some other way to hide the fact that they are by saying "i'm-in-love-with-his-personality" those crap you know.

I've met people who likes to appear as the "very-nice-likable-to-everyone" person, perhaps in fear of being judged by others?
But in the end they end up manipulating people who are closest to them, who probably won't even judge them to begin with, just so they may appear as the nicest person to everyone else.

Which if you think about it, it's kinda revolting, as in the end they turn out to be someone everyone else wants them to be, not who they want to be.

To those self-righteous people.
Please stop pretending to be self-righteous, and condemn people for THEIR choices.
Because in the end, YOU are not the one who have to live through their choices.

Cheesie for example: Are you her future kid? Are you living with her that whatever choice she makes will effect YOUR life?
No.

So shut your trap really, you are ruining the world for people who aren't afraid to be themselves.

Quite frankly, i rather people admit their flaws than giving reasons to cover those flaws up, because after a while you just see those "cover-ups" as a way of fear of being judged.

Not everyone is perfect, but as long as they can embrace their imperfection by admitting them, instead of making excuses and deny it, they will still be the more "perfect-person" than you are.

Ok, sekian.

This is one for the record.

2010-06-12T01:51:00.003+08:00

I was thinking of what to write for my FB status, when unknown to me, i turned my head to the right and see HeeChul, in one of her rarest moment, sitting there looking up at me with big goggly eyes (and not making a single sound).

I know she's asking for something, but i was lazy to move, so i asked her what she wants.
She looked back, blinked, and brush herself against my leg, so i continue updating my status ("thinks HeeChul is a fat balloon.").

Then later i turn to look at her, she was sitting by the door looking really sad and emo.
Trust me, if you see her, you would feel so too. The sad eyes, head on floor and all...

So i got up, and the minute i got up, she too got up and head to the kitchen (signaling me to follow her).
I did, and waddya know, her bowl was empty, and she wants food.

I'm pretty amazed by what she did, because every time when she meowed at me when she wants something, if i'm busy i'll usually ignore her, so maybe this time she tried some other method, or coincidentally or whatever... but either ways, you have got to admit it's really cute (and it works!!).

Ah, seriously, cats.

Can't live with 'em, can't live without 'em. XD

In a bitching mood.

2010-06-10T01:15:00.005+08:00

I've basically come up with "two types" of fashion-Blogs by girls.

There are those who acts like a bimbo, but really, between-the-lines(?) or so you can see a very smart and intelligent girl, just with the few bimbo-moments perhaps (face it, we all (girls) do!).

And then... there are those which are effortlessly bimbo.
The "Classic Bimbos".

The former which i really like, and latter which despite the annoyance, i really enjoy reading because it's really REALLY funny, and provides good entertainment XD!

Teehee!

And on to another matter...

I'm starting to not understand attention-seeking me-me-me people, to the extend they are really annoying me even though it's none-of-my-business.

If you don't take the initiative to do something, don't complain if the outcome if not what you want.

If you think you've tried, still not what you wanted, it's probably you didn't try hard enough (though you think you might have).
It is possible that nobody even realize it (since you didn't put any effort in)?
Either ways, still don't complain.

If you are just trying to seek-attention, by all means, my deepest sincerest apology that not everyone/ everything/ every outcome, can and should give in to your attention-seeking-needs.

Seriously, and i thought I was whiney and complainey (which i am, seriously, but this just blow everything out of porportion) (= =")...

Get this:
Not everyone have to do everything you want.

Not everything have to go the way you want it to be.

People have their own life. Things have to run their own course.

If you think people/ matters are not paying enough attention on you, look back, maybe you are the one who didn't pay enough attention back.

You can't blame anyone if so no?

Stop blaming others first, and look at yourself before you whine.

If you still want to continue so, by all means, go ahead.

Just don't blame anyone when things don't go your way, and especially if you are pushing people who are to close/ real/ true(?) to you even further.

Because seriously... GROW UP.

ps: That coming from me is pretty rich, but whatever you know, my Blog =D! Muhaha!

On religion.

2010-06-01T21:23:00.007+08:00

Someone tweeted Xiaxue saying "You are no one to judge our God".
I replied "So it's ok for them to judge other's God, but no one can judge their's??".

It got me thinking, what about when certain religious people (the annoying ones) judge other people's Gods? What gives them the right(?) to do so then?

I know not everyone is like that, trust me, i really do.
But you know, there are always those few who annoys the crap out of me, and hence, that reply.

I am a strong believer of being yourself, and respect others for being themselves.
If you are, say, a devoted Christian or a Buddhist, go ahead. I respect you for that.

But if you go on to criticize others' religion (or even implying) so to make yourself seemed the best, you're only making yourself and your religion look bad. You will also lose say respect from me.

I have nothing against the religion, because if i did, that would make me a hypocrite.

But i really really can't stand followers who go on to insult others religion, or "comparing religions" (expressly or impliedly). Really?
It's giving your religion a bad name, don't you think so? I've encountered so many people who are so, and honestly, it's really annoying.

Most of my friends are religious, and i love and adore them, because that is who they are, and i accept them for being themselves, just like they accepted me for being a not-very-religious Buddhist.
They will never seek to insult and down-trod my religion just so to make themselves seem as "the better one".

So honestly, i have nothing against the religion, but i have every bit against followers who like to "compare religion" and judge others' religion. Trust me, i've heard a lot, and have been preached a lot too (the annoying type).

Some of my favourite peoples in this world, who i know personally, are super religious, but i still adore them to bits, simply because they accept and respect me for who i am, never try to change me, and also, they don't preach nor go thinking "my religion is better than yours", and i love them for that!

Just saying.

Is Amber Chia trying to insult our intelligence?

2010-05-22T16:44:00.008+08:00

Ok this is your typical zip-zero-nada research done entry. I'm just writing my opinion from what i heard from my friends.
So i suggest if you really want to spread this around go do your own research or something. I bear no responsibility.

Ok, first we all know that Amber Chia got married in secret at the end-of-March.
Which if you ask me it's all very publicity-ey.

For starters, she suddenly got married. Of course, congratulations, definitely =D!
It was supposedly a secret, but then everyone knows about it after... then came the hordes of news on who sponsored her wedding da-da-da.
So obvious publicity dee can boh? Plus getting in married in secret (and suddenly) builds up a hype no?
Plus you don't see bigger names like Fish Leong and Angelica Lee (who was also awarded Best Actress in HK movie awards) go hush-hush when they got married.

So yeah, PUBLICITY!!
I honestly don't know why she wants to get married in "secret" anyways (oh right, the publicity and sponsorship!). Like who cares (seriously, nobody cares, i cared more on Fish Leong or Angelica Lee wedding to be honest hehe)?
Want to kahwin kahwin nya lar! It's a happy and good news!

Because her husband is shy?
If her husband is shy, for one, don't get sponsorship for your wedding then. Easy as that.

Then a month plus later there was an annoucement of her being 3-months pregnant! More congrats!

Now, here is me being a super busybody and like to gossip-gossip. =D

My friend's first thought of hearing the news was "how can you be pregnant for three months and not know?"
But if you time it, she got married end-March, then after the wedding only discovering that she is pregnant (1-2 months) and May announce... so ngam-ngam 3-months right?

But here is the picture of her pregnant 3-months.

Well, if this is 3-months pregnant, i must be due for delivery anytime soon. *pokes own's fat tummy*

(Note #1: I got the picture from The Star, so if it was from a previous photoshoot or something ages ago for maternity dresses bla-bla then stop reading because the points i make next would be redundant. Thank you.)
(Note #2: Of course, note the way she poses is to accentuate her bump (make it more obvious) so my points might still be redundant but whatever lar hehehe!)

I asked my mom, she say that tummy must be at least 5-months. She also added "people nowadays 3-months tummy still very small".
So unless if she's pregnant with twins (or a really large baby), it is impossible that that is 3-months.

Furthermore, as a model sure super slim right??
When my SIL was 5-months pregnant, she still looks the same, being a very petite and slim person!!
So if that is 3-months, i should ask my SIL if she was ever pregnant.

If you ask me, i think she was way pregnant before her wedding. At least, that was my theory from my ~~*coughverybusybodycough*~~ observations.

And she cough up such stories just to avoid the "social stigma"(?) on being pregnant before wedding, as you know, as open-minded Malaysians are, you do have that very very few who will frown at this sorta stuffs... usually the older generation...

I have nothing against getting married because you are pregnant. I think it is a rather responsible thing to do as you wouldn't your child to be born out of wedlock right?
Plus if reports were true, she and her husband had planned for the wedding years before. If you already have plans to get married and wants a baby anyways, there is no harm trying first before getting married right??

But for her to frame the whole story is kinda like insulting our intelligence. Like she's trying to pull a Ricky Martin.
And now everyone would just go, "yeah... right..."

If she were to just admit it, you would definitely have the minority old-fashion people who would gossip gossip, but most would congratulate her!

However, now she put it till this way, am sure majority would all roll their eyes at her. It's like, just admit lar, we all know DUH.

Oh well, whatever floats her boat! I'm just busybody and want to gossip nya hehehe =D!