This is called padan muka.

When you need someone, and that two person who i can usually count on to get me back on track is not there...
...
Throw them into the mouth of Mount Hukalaka or something.
Lols!

It's nothing lar, all part-and-parcel (however you say it) of being emo!


Gosh, i miss them so much (ㅠ.ㅠ)...

It's not to say that i don't appreciate them when they are around, i love them to bits in my own abusive ways... but when they are literally "gone"... you can really feel it...