Not sure...

Not sure if i'm too busy these days to even be my usual lame, whimisical, random self...

Or i'm just growing up.

Or perhaps just "acting my age" because i'm surrounded mostly by people so much younger than me. Ehem ehem.

...

Hmm, the latter two not likely i guess... Most likely that i'm just too busy that i forgot my whimsical side?

There's also the possibility because everyone just met each other it's not nice to show my true colours yet?

Heehee.

As much as i'm trying to appreciate being here and all, i miss home so much and everyone back there like mad. I also miss that crazy self i can be back home.

This Blog really needs to be revived soon.

I find that i'm so busy nowadays (procrastination from work = busy, too) i don't even have time to digest my thoughts.

Gone are the days i am able to poop out a hipster-poetical entry within a few seconds.

...

Ok never able to (the hipster-poetical entry, but poop entry yes), but still! I like the stuffs i wrote even if nobody else understands what i'm saying or mean.

Sometimes there are so many things i just want to express, and i know when i had expressed them i would feel better... but when you try to fit them into 140 words on Twitter, then try to shorten them so they fit... it just kills the mood!

This Blog has been with me for 5 years and more, through thick and thin through almost everything (even if it was neglected after Twitter). It deserves its comeback... even if all i write nowadays are random emo stuffs. 8D

It's also a good practice on how to organize my thoughts?

Hoping as busy as things get, i will keep this vow at least till i had to make this vow again. =)

Dear Boys,

Too busy to even check-up on you boys these days (well, not like i've been doing it even when i'm free... =P).

However, it's like the busier i get, i actually felt more distant.

That said, you boys are always on my mind.

Whether it's just the littlest thing i see...

I'm such a fangirl aren't i?

I miss you boys so much. I want to see you guys so badly but i'm afraid. So how now?

Go go GO!

Being here scares me sometimes.

I think i know why... though i guess there's nothing i can do about it but face it with all the awesomeness i can muster... which is a lot.

Let's do this! Go go GO! 8D

Truth be told, i love Oxford, and i really enjoyed my time there. I'm very grateful that i am able to spend a year there, and the time there had taught me a lot of things which i feel i would not be able to learn elsewhere.

Though as much as i would not trade the good times and memories i've had there, at the same time there are so many things and event i've missed back home because of being there.

Yeah, you really can't have everything you want. I guess it's just up to us to look at the bright side, and be positive wherever you are. (^^ )

Learning to cope with homesick, one step at a time...

This is not my first time away from home, but surprisingly, this is the worst.

I guess because last year at Oxford, despite feelings of homesick and what not, there's still the great classmates that i have who are always around. We make each other laugh all the time, and it was just good fun!

The outings, the dinner, the trips together... i honestly miss them so much because they are part of all the good memories which i've had in Oxford.

Oxford is a great place. It amuses me when i think back and thought i hated Oxford, when after the whole winter-gloomy-period is over, it is definitely one of the place which i truly love. =)