A day when my dreams were shattered...

Today... i felt horrible...

Jay Chou and Patty Hou (Host of Azio E-news) has confirmed that their dating/ seeing each other...

My heart took a plunge like... oh my god, i don't know what... like...

My dreams were shattered...

At the same time, i was also thinking, "Why Patty? Why not Jolin or Landy etc? Why her?", as i know i'll be able to accept the others better...

And i'm a mean and evil and horrible terrible girl... in the first few minutes of knowing the news, i ACTUALLY wished that they break up soon!!! I'm really a horrible girl!!!

But after awhile, after the news sank in to me, i accepted it, wish them happiness, and hope they'll be happy together...

Who am i to decide who Jay shall be with? Its his life and his world, as long as he is happy ^-^...

I'm very sure, i'll still continuing supporting him, i love his songs, and he is still me best and most possibly still favourite idol! Jay still rules no matter what!

Haha, but i think my big reaction on knowing the news (And becoming a mean and horrible girl...) is because of a few reasons...

I cannot accept him and Patty (But i can accept him and Jolin etc etc, as its been a very long time since their rumours had been flying around!) because... because... I'm very sure its because i'm jealous of Patty!
She's smart, beautiful, elegant, open-minded, have a good command on both english and chinese, an anchor woman, sweet voice, can speaks perfectly, people loves her, everyone loves her (BTW, shes also voted as Taiwan's Dream Lover or something!) etc etc... She is really just perfect!!!

But hmm... perfect guy matches perfect girl ne XD?

And also, the reporters took a picture of Jay and Patty really intimate with each other when they were in Japan (Jay hugged her from the back XD!)... i think its another jealousy strike XP??

Haha, and a few other reasons... i forget dee -_-"... hehe, next time only add XP?


Erm... and erm... I guessed i should've expected that THIS, will happen...
Last time in E-News @ Azio, when Patty went to Jay's shop for an outing, thinking back, Jay's eyes like shines when he look at her, when he talked to her... like shes really special... its really different than the ways Jay talk to other people... and i heard (Forget hear from where...) that Jay is trying to court her, just that Patty shows no interest... and than rumours about them starting to surface... etc etc...

And this morning... i was thinking of this also...
Jay and Patty had been rumoured to visit Japan together... i was wondering could it be true? And i told myself, whatever also, please please, Jay's partner PLEASE NOT be Patty, please be Jolin or something but NOT Patty... but haha... it came true! I should be a erm... physcic (I spelled this wrongly -_-"... lazy, i'll correct later...) or something? Hehehe...

You may not think this is related, but for me i think it is...
Last time, every night before sleeping, i'll definately hear a Jay song on the radio...
After moving into the new house and no radio at night for a few nights, after manage to obtaining a radio in my room, i've never heard his songs on radio at night anymore... i think i never even heard any of his songs on radio so far @_@... accept that concert LIVE one and a few times (One hand is enough to count how many times...)??
And i did felt our "bond" between an idol and a fan loosen, as in torn apart... not as "close" as last time...

Aiyar, cincai lar! His happy and i'm happy dee XD!!!~

Ok lar, until here ne! But neeways, although i already accepted and wished them happiness, i still need to steer clear away from my Jay stuffs... on the contrary, ALL JAY STUFFS TOO... for now ^-^! I'll be fine after a while and when Jay's back, eiko-chan will be back too ^-~!!!~ Sore ja, bye-bye XD!!!~

BTW, i know i'll always support Jay, because Jay is Jay and i love Jay, his music etc! Jay rocks ^-^!!!~


ps: Ooh, yeah, that day when i went to "sip tai sui", i went "kao chim" and asked about Jay's career too! The "chim" says that his career this year will not be so good, but there'll be a "gui ren" that'll help him over the bad times and his career will get better!!!
Could that "gui ren" be... Patty ^-^???
pps: And don't go telling me this, to everyone...
"Shattered dreams or not, you still have no chance with Jay, ok?"... say this, and i'll DEFINATELY steer clear from you for a month too -_-*!!!
Humans (Especially me -_-"...) are meant to have dreams... don't tell me no one doesn't, ok?