How now?

After 1 and almost half year, my Pre-U program's is finally over =(...
... next Tuesday after my final paper anyways ^^;;...

And before i go to all those mushy mushy memories, which i so far haven't feel it 100% yet for now (But i will after its truly over o(T-T)o...), time for the "big thoughts"...

No, its not studying for the final paper you dimwit (Which i haven't do yet, and i only have a day to do so, oh God, you bloody procrastinator... you screw your bloody Psycho paper because of that! WHEN ARE YOU GOING TO LEARN o(>.<")O?)! But more like, "what road to take after you've finish a quarter of your life"... Gees, that sounds scary =S... i think i'll change it to:
WHAT ARE YOU GOING TO DO AFTER PRE-U!!!

I've a couple of choices... but i realise i can never do a double degree or whatever, because all those i really wanted to do CLASHES with each other.
Its between MY DREAM, MY INTEREST and MY PASSION.
All of them are different in EVERY WAY!

MY DREAM
To be a Lawyer.
MY INTEREST
To have a career which has something to do with the Ent industry.
MY PASSION
To help animals, especially wildlife.

Realise i can NEVER achieve all of it at the same pace?


MY DREAM eversince somewhere back during high school... those that are closer to reality anyways ^^;;...
Which is, to be a Lawyer (Lets ignore the studying part and if i EVER manage to BE a lawyer first! Those stuffs are depressing)!
So i could help the needy nada nada nada (Long story!) and stuff the bloody thick Law textbooks into the faces of people who disrespect the Law!
LAW RULES =D (Even if you do break small ones sometimes...)!~
Gosh, i'm so noble *blushes*...
...
Ok ok, the truth (Stop puking now!)!
(Quoted in case you want to skip my reasonings, you can get to the next point faster! This is such a option-friendly Blog nyan =P!)

The true reason why i want to be a Lawyer (Not loyar buruk, please note!), is because i love the knowledge of Law, even though my brain never function properly (Please ask my close family and friends for evidence on this matter!)!
After knowing some other choices i can do as a fully-licensed lawyer, i've even decided i don't want to be "firmed", but rather be a freelance lawyer*! And do those small cases in those smaller rank court.
I don't know whats its called, let me get back to this matter (Detailed explanation on what i meant at the end of page though!)!
Lets face it, i'm so lazy, i can NEVER handle a big case (I'll probably end up writing an article on why my DongWan-oppa is so hot ^^;;...).
I don't think i have the "guts" to handle a big case too.
And also the emotion-handlings in any case i accidentally helped the "bad guys".
Eitherways, zipped, i NEVER want to handle big cases.

Apart from that, you know those Laws on animals in Malaysia, THEY ARE JUST SO LOOSE!
Those people who had terribly abused animals can get away easily with a mere RM100 fine!
RM100 I TELL YOU!
YOU CAN'T EVEN GET A DECENT HANDPHONE WITH RM100!
So yes, another reason why i want to be a Lawyer is so i can sue those bloody asses who had abused animals all the way to Timbaktu with the FULL PENALTY!
(The current full penalty for animal abuse is 6 months jail and RM200 fine max. But nobody has been given jail time or max RM200 fine ever. Even though SPCA is doing a petition, who knows if our bloody fellow Malaysians will even give a damn -__-"...)
Apart from domestic pets, even those idiots who has harmed the beautiful Malaysian wildlife never get the full penalty!
The full penalty if you hurt a Tiger is what, a max Rm15,000 fine and 10 years prison.
But NOBODY in the history of Malaysia Law EVER get the full penalty.
I don't think anyone got jail time too.
So yes, it is in my deepest dream to sue those idiots and making sure they get the FULL PENALTY for harming my darlings *beams*!
Or at least jail time instead of FINE, because FINEs can NEVER deter people from stopping to harm animals. Jail time will.
If a person harm a tiger and got caught and fined the max penalty, after paying he can just go catch another tiger and sell it and he can earn RM20,000-RM30,000. Got change somemore *sarcasm*.

Sorry for the long-winding story, i always get carried away when animals gets pulled into the picture ^^;;...


MY INTEREST is to have a career which is related to the Ent industry.
PDs, director, whatever! I really like those jobs!
I don't have much description for this because... i don't know why, i just don't have any ^^;;...
But yes, i've always wanted to be a music video director too! So i can put in all those story ideas stuck in my head since the ages of the sharks (Which is 300billion years ago, mind, they are older than the dinosaurs!)!
Argh, i really want to be a music video director o(>.<")o! All my ideas are floating in my head without having the chance to "flow out"! Or ads! HISH X3!~

MY PASSION is to help animals, especially wildlife.
Because if animals in general, it could mean domestic pets or whatever, and being a lawyer could help secure them their rights!
But my MAIN PASSION is with wildlife, something i discovered just last month.
I don't just love animals, I LOVE WILDLIFE!

And my passion is always burning strong especially to help endangered species!
Wildlife are seriously being harmed by humans
We are all dependant on each other, but we're killing them at the same time and blaming them for stupid reasons (Which, if you think further, WE are the MAIN CAUSE for EVERYTHING!).
Thanks alot to Mr Moaz! Attending his class can really make you THINK!

Ok, anyways, to help animals, i really wanted to be a... erm, i don't know what you call them, but whatever first! Conservationist? Researcher? Biologist?
Its either i'll be running in the savannah, researching and helping to save Cheetahs or Hippos
or
deep in the jungle and help Tigers or OrangUtans
or
far into the middle of the ocean and be a Marine Biologist to help Sharks or Turtles or Dolphins or Whales or POLAR BEARS!
Gosh, i really love Polar Bears all of a sudden, their just so cute, warm and fuzzy X3!~

But thinking further, am i "packed" to live such "wild" life?
I can stand heat, but not to the extreme, AND I CAN DEFINATELY NEVER STAND THE COLD!
No, so i've thoughts of even being a Zoo-keeper!
So i can help the animals, and at the same time be "close to home"!
Oh gee, i'm such a CITY GIRL o(=.=")o...
I have dreamed to be like Diane Fossey**, but i guess i could never be like her due to that reason =S...
Bloody hell...

But me, saying out my idea for the first time, has receive the first opposition from my Mom.
She don't like it.
Oh marshmallows, what am i going to do o(=.=")o...

But eitherways, i'm so passionate about wildlife, just looking at them running/ swimming happily in the wild can make me go all happy and mushy!
Not just that, seeing them happy makes me EXTRA HAPPY =D!~ My whole day can brighten up just watching them happy on tee-vee X3!~
Imagine seeing them in front of me *dreams*...
Even hearing news on how GREATER PEOPLE who had risk and spend their lives just to help those animals make me really salute them and admire them!
Like Diane Fossey**! I really admire her! She's really noble and great ne X3!
ANIMALS ROCKS XD!!!~

BUT...
Basically, so yeah, i'm so screwed by those options =S...
WHY THE MARSHMALLOW AM I SO "DIFFICULT"?

Please ignore all the above, i realise i'm REALLY rambling ^^;;...
But yes, those are my mixed emotions on the whole matter...
Marshmallowies, maybe i should just stay in kindergarten till i'm 50 or something =D!
*whacks self*
Just kidding =P!


*Freelance lawyer - This is just a term i made up!
But eitherways, basically what i'm trying to say is, instead of being in a firm and working your ass off from 9 to 5 (Or even more o(@.@!)o!), you just go to the court whenever you feel like it (Of course got selected days one lar, DUH!) and offer to help represent those people who had commited minor-crimes (Speeding? Not sure yet!) infront of the judge because yeah, sometimes when you commited a "minor-crime", you need to go to court (But not those big serious courts!) to state your mistake then pay the fine and all, and you definately need a lawyer to represent you!
So yeah, got what i mean? Because i don't myself o(=o=")o...
I'll look up for the more correct term o(=.=")o... sumimasen!

** Oh, if you don't know who Diane Fossey is, you're so screwed man =/... go knock your head on the wall and type in her BIG NAME in Google or something...