Hehe, i felt like a
hypocrite sometimes =P!
And i hate hypocrites,
gah!
Hate myself?
ANDUE!~
HeeChul's getting on my
nerves; she got really pissed off at the new kitties, and she wants to approach them, but is
afraid at the same time.
Can't blame her, when she was younger she tried to approach the
older cats, ended up getting
bullied like mad!
However, she's hissing and all when we bring her near to them, to one extend she tried to
scratch me!
This did not help
my mood at all o(=.=*)o.
Anyways, back to what i was supposed to say:
Hehe, why do i call myself a
hypocrite?
Hmm... now thinking back, not exactly "hypocrite"
THAT serious lar, but more like "contradictings".
Remember the pass few days where i got
so annoyed by
everyone else?
Nyat, i need a
new Blog where i can just
curse and stuffs!
Anyways, after "calming-down", i've made a resolution to
TRY not to be easily annoyed!
Its a good thing as well lar, just
control and all,
no point being annoyed to people who are not worth-it!
Good for health also,
annoyance is definitely a
no-no!
And i've
actually successfully made to it... well,
sorta.
I'm no
Superman, of course need time to "get-to-it"!
However, the
contradicting part is that i felt i was
not appreciated.
The thing with
middle-years, we really need to feel appreciated
huuh?
Taken for granted,
isn't that sad?
Not even any thanks or concern, especially through all the trouble it went through.
Should not be that
kind next time, to anyone who is not worth the trouble which went through.
But being kind is not just something you can just "don't-want-to-do" or
avoid right? I mean, nobody's
THAT heartless?
Nah, i don't think i'm being "kind", i'm just
8.
Should stop being
8, and be
more "selfish" to unworthy people, and
more "selfless" to worthy people.
I know its not nice to judge and rate people.
But like said, i'm not kind, so yeah, why help if it will just be
taken for granted?
Its not like we're
helping animals, and stop eating
Shark's Fin soup and all.
And i know everyone would've said, even if i stop eating
Shark's Fin soup, its not like the sharks will
worship me or anything.
In fact, they'll probably see me as a
threat to them if i enter the waters with them!
However, seeing them
swimming freely around the ocean, isn't that worth the trouble? Isn't it beautiful?
They are just such
magnificent creatures!
I know
its beautiful to me, i love
Sharks.
And people who just eat
Shark's Fin soup are horrible.
*Of course, there is another contradicting opinion which i'll just "small-quote" it at the end of this post.Oops,
side-tracked again. Me and
my animal-loving-side XD!~
Of course, contradicting again, sometimes when
BIG TROUBLE really pursues, it won't hurt to help lar, even if it will be taken for granted again!
At least you know
you tried =)!
Though, another thing is i felt that
worst thing is NOT being
taken for granted, but rather, when you
need help or at least, need a "favour" to be returned, because it might be
important to you, it was not returned.
Especially from
constant emo-peoples like me o(=v=")o. I might need the
constant attention, ehehe!
And thus, it made you felt
worst for helping out others in the first place.
But its ok lar, i guess its just
nice to help people =).
See how i
contradicts myself o(=.=")o.
I should stop writing now, before i
contradicts myself further and
confuses everyone.
Going to
flea-market later! See you!~
---
About the
Shark's Fin part:
I have a friend whose uncle or someone catches sharks, and displays their fin at home.
I find that "ok", because although i generally opposed to
any killings of any wildlife, at least those sharks are
KILLED, and not just
FINNED and left
floating in the ocean to die!
Somemore my friend UNDERSTOOD
me and my sharks, and even sorta
apologized and felt
remorse to me!
How can you get
angry at someone so understanding? Especially when its not what
they did, and its something you are more "ok" with as opposed to
finning!
Just for a bowl of
Shark's Fin soup, most sharks caught for their FIN will just be
FINNED, then throw back into the ocean to be left to die.
Imagine someone catched you all of a sudden,
chop off your hands and legs (Our hands and legs to use are like fins to sharks, we need it to be able to swim!), and
throw you into the ocean.
Float-float-float...
DIE!
If someone just say they can't
help it for eating
Shark's Fin soup, because they love it, and though
they doubt they will stop but at least, its
NOT something they are "proud" of, at least that is something i can "close-one-eye-open-one-eye".
Not that i can
live with that fact, but when its your close friends and all,
what can you do?
Catch them, throw them and feed them back to the sharks?At least they are
NOT PROUD of it!
But i've just met someone who had
seriously annoyed me.
Not only he did not feel
REMORSE for doing so, he darely say to me:
"Because sharks are getting lesser so he's going to eat alot of
Shark's Fin soup before they are all gone."
And he said it as if he had just won the
NOBEL PRIZE for eating
Shark's Fin soup and stuffs.
Obviously, he was
PROUD of eating
Shark's Fin soup.
He has officially gone into my
ANNOYED-LIST.
And his a nice guy, mind, but
someone like that is just
someone i truly dislike.
As much as he is still
my friend and all, i doubt he'll be considered
a true friend any time sooner.
If he didn't say it in front of me, but to
everyone else, who cares lar,
it was not infront of me!
But to say
THAT infront of me, that's just
PLAIN DISRESPECTFUL.
You don't do this to friends.
Especially for something you truly believe in.
Especially for an
animal-freak like me.
Bah, but technically,
no matter how much i like someone lar, i will have a
general dislike for anyone who eats
Shark's Fin soup!
Yes, even if they are
Super Junior,
Shinhwa,
Jay Chou,
TVfXQ! or
w-inds.!
Except for
my Paternal Grandmother.
Because i feel she'll probably
stop eating it for me, but out of respect, if she really wants it, i wouldn't have mind.
She's
my grandmama for heaven's sake!
But i wouldn't know. She left before i got the chance to find out.
Where in the world is
Natsuko when you need her?
Ehe!
