Dissappointed...

Thats how i feel now...

I went to "welcome" TVfXQ! from the airport just now, a rather "crazy feat", seeing that i've just been a fan the beginning of this year and all.
Anyways, don't bother asking how it is.
You'll just make me feel heartbroken more, thinking of the whole incident. And i'll only just tell you that i'm VERY dissappointed.
At everyone.
Yes, even with TVfXQ! themself.
But of course, especially the fans.

We have made an "agreement" within the "fanclub" not to PUSH so others and ourselves, especially TVfXQ!, wouldn't get injured or anything.
But at the end, all went haywire and out of control. To the extend one girl fell quite badly (As what BiBi told us ler!)? Not to forget all the pushing, screams, noise of something which fell but i don't know what, plus the sound of balloon pop... ALOT...
It sucked.

The boys didn't exactly smile alot too (But their like, BLOODY NEAR TO ME! Just within half an arm reach of me!), but understand ler, they are tired, and the minute they appear, havoc happened, more pressure towards them? If they smile more and all, could probably create more trouble?
BiBi say YuCheon smiled ler, but i no idea ler... i was behind them most of the time until they reach the car, and very near to MinMin's back and resist the temptation to kick him in the butt... or grab =P..., and overall didn't get a clear close look of their face as they entered the car! Just get the best glimpse of when they are coming out!~

Then the dissappointment came...

I followed them to the car (Almost slip at the ramp o(=.=")o... luckily no prob touchwood!), and all fans were pushing and all, ANNOYING!
Then, i was just standing right OUTSIDE their car door! Can see JaeJoong-ie inside (They split into two vans!)! Forget who else inside though =P!
The guard was blocking all from approaching the car, and being the good girl me, i just stood there with no attempts or even wishes to push or barge pass the guard, because... what for?
Anyways, as i was standing outside the door, i waved towards JaeJoong! I'm like, so obviously infront of him AND WAVING TOWARDS HIM!
But being the blur JaeJoong, he just looked at me... and looked at me... and looked at me...
o(=.=")o... you don't know how to smile one meh...
Somemore i made a fool out of myself by WAVING there like a mad woman o(=.=")o...
Stupid Joongie... thank God i know you are THAT blur... otherwise i would've !@#$%^&*...

After that, we got in the car and "chased" abit!
Not exactly to CHASE ler, but rather, if we get to catch up to them (Since they left a while before us!), then mar good ler!
I've even written some stuffs on white paper such as "TVfXQ! Saranghaeyo! Fighting!" etc, so we could put it on the window in case our car catches up to theirs!

Lucky us, the car DID manage to catch up!
...
But now, i felt its rather unlucky ler...
Anyways, somehow, the car were rather slow!
We got really excited, and all got ready to put up the signs and smile and wave to them at all...

Pass 1st car, JaeJoong inside with JunSu??? Anyways, can only see him best ler.
So as we passed him, i put the sign on against the window and smiled and waved.
JaeJoong looked at us. Looked at us. Look back down.
We felt like a BIG PAN SMASHED against our face.
Nevermind, speed up, next car next car.

I can see YuCheon best inside this car, so i focus on him most.
He was digging his bag for something.
Eitherways, we were next to him (Very safe, i assure you!), i put the sign up again and smiled.
Honestly, a little embaressed too ler, i mean, we looked so silly!
YuCheon looked at us.
Continue digging his bag.
...
This time, SUPER BIG ULTRA HUMOUNGOUS GIANT WOK "SMASHED US" RIGHT ON THE FACE!
Especially me... since YuCheon is also one of my favourite.
Well, actually, i like them all, but i especially care for MinMin and YuCheon!
So you can imagine how i felt.

After that, all of us got dejected and all, serious dissappointment and sad after that...
Especially heartbroken...
Though, i find it hard to just immediately "dislike them", as i have done with "some other artists" (Which i really dislike now!)... i don't know, i really don't know W.H.Y.!

We're not hoping for anything, but rather, just a smile or wave back, then we'll be FLYING ON CLOUD NINE already...
But instead... argh, really don't know how to say...

I was especially dissappointed with YuCheon... that bloody idiot...
JaeJoong i understand, ever the BLUR him o(=v=")o... BiBi's sister even caught him playing with the van's light XD!!!~ SO CUTE X3!!!~
And i think we also "frightened" him abit, since suddenly we turn up next to his car o(=v=")o...
But YuCheon???
That PARK YUCHEON???
Since when is he blur??? Or EVEN BLUR???
He technically just STARE AT US! ARGH, !@#$%^&*...

I feel like such a fool now... waving, smiling and all like an idiot back there... SERIOUSLY "BABI-FIED"!!!

I'll definately enjoy myself at the concert on Fri, cause hey, i've already paid for it...
But nothing can amount to how i felt now...
Bloody hell...